Love is friendship set to music...<3

2008-09-04T10:17:00.002+08:00

hey!
i've made a new blog.
so yeah.
link me.
:)
http://linaluvelle.livejournal.com/

2008-09-03T08:43:00.002+08:00

ok.
right now, im suppose to be in school but im not.
not because im lazy.
not because i just wanna cabot.
its because of something embarrasing that just happened.
its suppose to be my first day in school today.
new semester.

ok so i woke up got ready for school.
after that i went out.
i was on my way to the bus stop.
i was going down the stairs when i saw the bus that i always take to school.
so i decided to take a shortcut.
i wanted to walk on the grass.
i saw a few muddy patches.
so i avoid and step on to the parts which are less muddy.
as i step, i slip and fell on my ass on the blady muddy patches.
i know you are laughing now.
i don't blame you cause i wanted to laugh myself.
after that without wasting my time i stood up and turn back and walk home.
there were alot of people at the bus stop.
and some of the students from my school were there as well.
that was the most embarrasing thing that has ever happened to me.

so my left elbow, left butt and left foot was soak in mud.
so was my laptop bag. :(
and this is my second great fall.
i already have backbone ache and after my first fall it worsen.
then it come and go.
then now after my second fall, the ache is back.
im seriously old.
luckily i always drink milk.
add calcium to my bone.
i mean seriously, how clumsy can i get?
its my first day in school and i didnt come.
i were to go after i came home and change, i will be late for class and it would create a bad impression.
might as well i don't come.
i think today's module is science.
urgh.
i shall just go to school tmr.
toodles!

2008-09-01T14:22:00.005+08:00

helloooo!
yeah i know its been a loooong time since i update my blog.
i've been a lazy bum you know.
haha.
i wont be updating much because i am probably gonna change my blogspot to livejournal.
i used to have an account in livejournal.
however, i wanna make a new one.
but...
i love blogspot...
nvm.
its time for a change.
haha.
btw mum, bro and me sahur just now.
it felt so awkard and silent and different because my dad wasn't there.
gosh.
ok i shall not go on about this.

to anna and lyn:
i had fun with you girls that night! haha. i can foresee us sitting down at the coffeeshop and gossiping when we are in our golden age. hehe.

to all my gfs:
i'm sorry for those i did not get to see last saturday.
sorry i came late.
:(
but don't worry!
we will meet up soon!
very soon!
hee.
:D

P.S: I miss you. Can't wait for you to come back.
My credits are running low from all the long distance smses and calls.
but its ok.
its worth it.
hehe.
:)

2008-08-19T19:56:00.003+08:00

went to Hard Rock with cuzzie yesterday.
it was fun.
haha.
Kumar was damn funny.
even though the jokes were some quite offensive.
you'll have to keep an open mind.
haha.
cuzzie and one of our fren had to go up the stage for some birthday things.
it was funny.
i laughed so much.
toodles!

2008-08-17T18:29:00.003+08:00

hey.
yesterday was sheila's birthday!
happy birthday bebeh!
dah legal sey.
haha.

had fun ytd.
went to Sentosa for swimming.
then we went to Harbour Front interchange for dinner.
head to the garden at Vivo and all of us decided to chill there.
however i told azari of my plan and he agrees to it.
huahua.
we bought a cake from Bread Talk then we went to surprise Sheila.
i hope that you had fun cuzzie!
its so sweet of me right?
haha.
i know.
:)
lol.

after that some of us sat in a circle and played some games.
which was fun.
and not forgetting tiring.
haha.
but i enjoyed myself.
so yeah.

i gtg now.
i know this sounds lame or whatever but i'm going to watch Olympics later.
haha.
finals you know.
must watch.
haha.
toodles!
:)

2008-08-12T23:40:00.003+08:00

hey there!
today was the last day of the semester.
i can't believe that the whole class actually cabot after the 2nd meeting.
haha.
i feel guilty cause i was the culprit.
i asked everybody to cabot 3rd meeting.
haha.
but nvm.
it was worth it.
we had a lot of fun.
haha.
first, we went to lunch then to sembahwang.
i should have totally followed my classmate to go Geylang.
but i was broke and had a store meeting to attend.
-_-

there will be another gathering on the 22 Aug 2008!
so mates, make yourself free on that day and lets have fun and boogie!
haha.
ok.
im so gonna miss my first semester class.
:(
toodles!

2008-08-08T11:23:00.002+08:00

i'm going to start my school holiday soon.
next tuesday will be my last day.
hehe.
but the sad thing is that i will change class.
i don't want to change my class.
but i guess i have to look on the bright side that i wil get to make new friends.

fasting month is coming soon.
and i miss my dad so much.
gtg.
toodles!

2008-08-05T00:31:00.002+08:00

i've just watched 10 things i hate about you.
hehehehehehehe.
and i love the movie.
its a romantic-comedy.
so yeah.

it is quite a typical storyline.
even so i still love it.
moreover heath ledger is the main cast.
sweet.
and he is so so so charming.
i love it when he smiles...
and i totally love his accent.
great actor.
ok i shall not go on.
hee.
next movie that i want to watch is Brokeback Mountain.
:)
i know that all this movie has been out for quite sometime but i've not watched it before.
so yeah.
i wanna watch.
i heard that Brokeback Mountain is a award winning movie so i must watch it.
:)
toodles!

2008-07-31T15:29:00.008+08:00

can i know who have 10 Things I Hate About You DVD?
i really want to watch that show.

i know that Heath Ledger have passed away for around 5 months now.
but still i feel so so so sad.
he is still so young and he was getting on with his career and he have a very adorable daughter.
it is such sad thing to lose an actor like him.
i wonder how his daughter will get on with her life especially when she grows up.
i really think that its not just because his death was caused of overdose of medication.
maybe there is a reason why he has to take that medication.
maybe it was just an accident.
well, i just hope that he RIP.
:(

2008-07-28T10:33:00.005+08:00

hello!
i've been away for quite awhile.
i know its kindda late for me to update about my 18th birthday.
but i don't care.
i still wanna update about it.
haha.

ok. so firstly, my birthday was on last wedneday, 23 July 2008.
obviously i have to go to school.
so yeah.
i went to school.
so during my lunch break, my classmate made a surprise.
hehe.
i was sleeping on my faci's chair.
haha.
the bought this nice cheesecake with candle on it.
they also came with a lot of balloons.
and they gave me a box which i initially did not want to open because i want to wait till i reached home.
but i couldn't wait so i just opened it.
thank you so much for the pleasant surprise they made.
i really appreciate it.
:)

after that, i went to meet bf and we chilled at the library.
i had to wait for so long and i did not know what i had to wait for because he refuse to tell me anything.
at around 8 plus in the evening, we then proceeded to Pizza Hut.
the moment i stepped in, i heard a group of people shouted 'SURPRISE!'
then i turned and i saw all my gfs.
i was really happy and of coz surprise.
hehe.
i was happy to see all of them cause its been a long time i meet up with all of them.
after eating the pizza, they said that they were waiting for fried chicken.
only then i got to know it was my birthday cake.
the cake was nice.
and i was touched because all of them were there and for the surprise.
hehe.
everything was so nice.
after that we chilled and played some game.
it was fun.
after that we all headed home.
and i wanna say thank you to inah for the necklace.
hehe.
i like. :)
P.S: i had fun throwing the candle wax at them. haha.
thank you so much for everything.
i had fun and really enjoyed myself.

the next day, my family and i went for dinner at Newton.
it was my bro's and my mum's treat.
hehe.
i was so full after that.
my bro's gf gave me a handbag as a present.

on saturday, i went out with bf and his frens.
first we went to have dinner.
after that, we went to Dempsey Hill.
it was funny because i was not suppose to know about it but bf accidentally blurt it.
haha.
it was funny.
haha.
so we went to Ben and Jerry at Dempsey Hill. (its a very nice place)
we hang out there for quite sometime.
they were a lot of people there.
so while i was sitting down and waiting, all of his frens came to my table suddenly and they sang the birthday song twice and there was bf who was holding the birthday cake.
i was touched.
hehe.
i had a hard time cutting the cake because its ice cream cake and there were 20 of us.
and the cake was superb.
cookies and cream.
:)
after that we headed to SMU.
which was so boring.
which was a waste of time.
we thought that it was gonna be fun.
but im happy cause i get to meet my frens for awhile.
Lyn, anna, fit and shameer!
hehe.
its been so long since i met shameer.
been his classmates for 7 years?
haha.
it was nice to see him.
after that we went to Mount Faber - Henderson Waves.
its a very nice place.
hang out for awhile then i head home.

overall, my birthday was a blast!
i wanna thank everyone for all the surprises and the celebration.
especially to my dearest bf for planning the whole thing.
hehe.
i love you so much.

i will upload the pictures soon alright?
im sorry if i do not include names that im suppose to put.
you know what i mean?

ok i gtg now.
toodles! :)

2008-07-20T14:33:00.003+08:00

work was hell.
as usual.
but after that, i went for sheesha...
woo.
cool or whattttttt?
haha.

next week.
looking or not looking forward?
i dunno.

i can be really random.

P.S: I don't know if you still care about me.

2008-07-08T12:52:00.003+08:00

i'm feeling a little sad right now.
nizam on the Hari raya songs.
since last year i was looking forward to this year's Hari Raya.
it's because this will be the first year after so many years not celebrating Hari Raya with my complete family members.
however, that dream of mine will never come true because my late dad will no longer be with us forever.
its been 6 months plus and it is still affecting me.
i'm so upset.
so so so upset.
only a few months left.
i miss him so much.
gtg.
bye.

2008-07-07T10:59:00.003+08:00

currently, im in school.
its like so boring because its Youth day and its suppose to be a holiday for us.
but too bad.. not for my school.
and im pissed that my manager did not give me any shift this week.
like what the hell.
urgh.

anyway, i went to Dampsey Hill with my girls last Saturday with my girls after work.
i had so much fun after so long never hang out together.
that was my first time there and its a very nice place.
i wanna go there again.
we should all hang out there like when we start to work already.
it is quite an expensive place.

went to Causeway Point yesterday with mum.
we were feeling a lil bored at home so yeah.
we did a little shopping.
hehe.
i gtg for now.
i wanna eat my pancake that i asked ida to buy!
huahua!
so hungry.
bye!

2008-06-29T17:10:00.002+08:00

sunday.
boring day.
wish there is someone who will ask me out when i'm free.
i wanna find a new job.
i can't take the shits that has been happening in the current place im working since day 1.
political.
before i work there, i see the people working there and also other outlets, they look like they have fun.
but after i work there myself.
all that is plain plastic.
only giving the illusion that its fun when its not.
i wanna go out this coming saturday.
after work that is.
i do no know what time i finish working on this coming saturday.
probably after 5pm.
so yeah.
where to go?
with who?
i don't know.

i've been sick since last wednesday.
till today, i'm still sick.
well at least its just cough and running nose now.
i was suppose to work ytd but i couldn't cause my cough and running nose was still very bad.
wednesday and thursday, fever.
friday and saturday, very bad running nose and cough.
sunday, running nose and cough.
what i hate the most having running nose and cough is that the feeling that i get.
you know like you feel that your brains is being compress and all.
and also the fact that i wish that my nose is detachable(however you spell it).

i miss three days of skool!!!
frustrating.
i hope that i will feel so much better tmr.
plsss..
i need to be in skool the whole day tmr.
and i need to start revising again for my maths.
-_-
i just have this very bad feeling that i will fail my maths again.
if that is so, i don't think i will continue doing what i am doing now.
i can choose to stay in the current skool and retake my maths again till i pass.
or i should just go private.
mum asked me to take study loan.
since i still have to pay for my education in polytechnic, no discount or whatsoever.
might as well i go private.
i guess.
we will see how.
for now, i will just try my best to study hard and smart.
toodles!

Help.

2008-06-20T19:19:00.003+08:00

honestly, i do not know what is wrong with me.
all i know is that right now, i am feeling upset.
not feeling well either.
i don't know what cause me to feel this way.
i hate this feeling.
i've been avoiding myself, refraining myself from feeling this way and just pretend everything is ok when its not.

i just want to go away for a period of time and do some soul-searching or something.
my life is so dull right now.
i want everything to be back to the way it was.
maybe that is impossible.

i believe that if you help people, people will help you back.
but now, i no longer believe that.
they are not there when i need them to help me.
why do i even wanna help when i know that they will not help me back in return?
that is simple.
it's because i believe that one day, one day, they will recognize me for what i've given and help and they will in return, return me with good deeds.
but now, i no longer believe that.

faking can sometimes be good and can sometimes be bad.
i've been putting up a face where everyone will think and see me as i am ok when down inside im not.
if you ask why would i want to do that, it's because i do not want people to know what i am going through or feel.
i just want someone.
someone.
im looking for someone that i can pour out everything to him or her.
someone who will understand.
someone who will not judge me.
someone who will listen.
someone who will help me think through what im going through and help me out.
someone who will agree with me.
im trying to find my way back.
my life is so mundane.
routine.
boring.
i want my life to be full of surprises.
colourful.

lastly.
i wanna be there.
i really really really wanna be there.
i've been waiting for this time.
but i couldn't make it
i really hate this.
i just wanna be there and spend time with all of you.
but i can't.
i don't know what i should do.

can someone just help me out?

if you don't understand this entry, its ok.
try reading in between the lines.
not literally though.
maybe it helps.

2008-06-11T15:33:00.003+08:00

hello.
im finally free today.
well not really.
because i have plan what i am going to do today.

first thing first.
ytd was my class chalet.
i came back at around 3 am.
im so tired.
it was fun.
if i have the photos, i will upload it.
:)

so after i came back, i slept till 2 pm today.
hehe.
so when i woke up,
i went to the toilet and do what i have to do.
then had a 'lunch' (burger with neslo) with mum nad bro.
my mum and bro then talk about politics which i find it was funny.
lol.
i just keep quiet, listen to their conversation and laughed.

so this is what i plan to do today:

1) arrange the things on my table which is full with my bro's stuff
2) wipe my lappy
3) wipe my closet inside and out
4) sort out the clothes that i want and don't want
5) after that i plan to go for a jog (which will not happen)
6) i plan to read the storybook that i bought but have not read yet
7) do some revision
8) watch tv! :)

thats how i am going to spend my day today. :)

2008-06-04T23:06:00.005+08:00

one after another.
but its ok.
at least i got through it.

i think i am addicted to coffee.
seriously.
i'm currently high on caffeine.
this cannot go on.
it is not healthy.

i'm having a migrain right now.
so i better go and rest and sleep early!
-_-

2008-06-02T00:29:00.003+08:00

i just finished bathing.
just now was pretty fun.
get to meet all my cousins.
and my brother received alot of present.
and i wanted to do a surprise for him which leads to a disappointment.
i bought a cake for him.
i wrote his name on the cake.
so i was planning with cik edah how to come from behind and surprise him when suddenly i saw my brother came out from the shop with the cake.
i was lost at a moment.
so mum just asked me to take out the cake and just cut and eat.
i like the cake that i bought cause it is strawberry and not chocolate.
i don't quite like chocolate cake cause it makes me pening.
after that chill2 for awhile and then head back home.
:)

i don't see the point trying.
i don't see the point of trying to work this out.
i don't know what to do.
i'm getting sick of the same old thing.
you pretend that you listen but you don't register that.
so what happens now?

2008-06-01T13:49:00.006+08:00

ok! first things first! i wanna wish my brother a HAPPY 27TH BIRTHDAY! hehe. going out with him and meeting my cousins later! hehe.

secondly, now that i understand what idaa meant about the mission thingy, i would like to do the 'mission' now. :)

Here we go,

1.if your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?

- hmm. this looks familiar. i would be angry for sure. but if i really love him, i would forgive and start anew.

2.if you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?

- hmm. to have a happy and easy life in this world and after world. :)

3.what will your dream wedding to be like?

- wearing the most beautiful wedding gown,looking hot and beautiful in it and getting married to the man i love by the most beautiful beach . haha.

4.are you confused of what lies ahead of you?

- yes! at times.

5.what's your ideal lover like?

- someone who will always be there for me. someone i can talk to and feel comfortable being around him. honest,sincere and faithful. someone who accept me for who i am despite knowing my flaws. full of surprises. knows when to be romantic and sweet. someone who have sense of humour so that he can always make me laugh. someone who will always make me smile and happy.

6.which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

- certainly being loved by someone.

7.how long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

- hmm. i waited quite some time for this guy. i almost had him when i turn my back on him and till today i dunno why. but now, all that doesn't matter anymore.

8.if the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?

- just forget it and pretend that it never happened.

9.is there anything that makes you unhappy these days?

- the way i behave at times. the mood that i have at times. and the fact that this few days i let emotions took over me.

10.is being tagged fun?

- yeah!

11.how do you see yourself in ten years time?

- i'll be 28 by then. so i foresee that i will be married to they man i really love. have a happy family. no children yet. haha. and have a successful career and i have a house of my own where i live with my husband. hahaha.

12.who are currently most important people to you?

- my family, friends and him. :)

13.what kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

- you mean idaa? hmm. she is cute. lovable. sweet nice girl. she is smart. and i miss her alot. miss the times when we hang on the phone till late. remember? hehe.

14.which one would you choose-marriage or career?

- marriage.

15.what's the first thing you do every morning?

- snooze the alarm clock. walk out my mum's room and on my room lights. charge my phone. sms someone. then bath. that is like my basic routine on weekdays. :)

16.if you fall in love with two person simultaneously, who would you pick?

- someone who i think and feel best fit me. he fit in to majority of my criteria in question number 5. and he must not be afraid of commitment. :)

17.what type of friends do you like?

- who is always there and knows how to cheer me up. be by my side through ups and downs. someone that won't betray me.

18.if given the chance to turn back time, will you?

- yes. i will turn back time to the day that my dad went away so that i can make him feel happy. be by his side. spend time with him. not that i did not do all this before. but if i were to know i would do much more then just that.

19.Will you marry a person of your parents choice?

- erm. if it is in terms of monetary i will not. but if match-making, i will go out with him to know him better. he could be my soulmate you know. haha.

10 people to be tagged
-sheila
-nazurah
-lyn
-ayu
-inah
-kak syidah
-kak yana
-nina
-maii
- you-know-who :)

that's all people! :)

2008-05-28T16:41:00.000+08:00

so last weekend i went or a short trip.
to be honest, the first day was boring.
dan boring.
and i was so shag on the first day.
the second day was qute fun because i went shopping!
haha.
i did not get to buy much things though because i spent more on my mum's things.
so sweet of me right?
haha.
that was my first time going out of Singapore without my family members.
haha.
the person i missed most and i think of alot when i was there was my mum.
i dunnu why.
haha.
im working tmr.
blegh.

P.S: I miss my girlsfriends!

2008-05-21T13:07:00.004+08:00

im quite pissed.
it is so hard to organize things.
some just can't sacrifice things.
but whatever.
whatever the reason on why they can't sacrifice certain things i really don't care.
blegh.

i basically slack the whole day in class today.
well basically it is because it's the Maths module.
suck.
i think im gonna get C.
whatever.
can't wait for this weekend!
woo!
looking forward to it.
i hope im gonna have a great weekend.
:)

I NEED TO CHANGE MY BLOG SKIN SOON.

2008-05-12T16:31:00.002+08:00

i really had fun last saturday.
lyn is working opposite of my workplace.
im so happy.
and then all of the girls came.
im so happy.
miss them so much.
especially maii.
must meet me soon ok maii!

after work, we went to Jalan Kayu to have supper.
after eating i experience something that really scared me.
i think i almost died.
i wish that it will never happen again.
whatever it is i love my family and friends.
alot.

2008-05-07T12:45:00.002+08:00

my schedule has been tight.
i have to work on weekdays as well.
i don't earn much by working once a week.
i have to work.
its not like i have a choice.
well i don't care if it is going to be tiring.
there is nothing in this world that we do is not tiring.
one main thing that i really have to do is to manage my time well.

sometimes i wonder if it's worth to even try.
some said i have change.
different from who they use to know.
i don't know what cause me to change.
well maybe this is what they call ''people change''.
i guess that event really changed me alot.
i don't have the luxury of time that i used to have.

2008-04-30T15:34:00.003+08:00

i am in class right now.
and i know that i am not suppose to be doing this.
but chill!
other classmates are visiting unrelated sites as well.
today's module is boring.
Computing Maths.
no one is really listening to each team.
and i'm eating chocolate cake right now that my team's dad baked.
YUMMY!
so moist!
:)

i'm having audition later.
and i don't feel good about it.
im nervous.
im everything negative.
urgh!

2008-04-27T21:39:00.002+08:00

today is sunday.
so basically i spend my sundays rotting at home do absolutely nothing.
i know it can be boring.
but sunday is the only day that i can have time for my family and myself.
i miss going out with my gfs.
haiz.

this coming wednesday is my audition.
i hope i won't make a fool of myself.
i can't wait to start my tuition cause i really need guidance.
so now imma go and revise.
toodles!

2008-04-24T23:18:00.002+08:00

hello!
i've been really busy with school and things like that.
and i miss my gfs.
i miss going out with them on weekends.
i don't have that luxury of time anymore.
can't wait for the holidays!
still long way to go.
and i've been a pig this week.
after school i will go home and sleeeep.
haha.
lazy bum.

2008-04-16T23:34:00.002+08:00

holla!!!
i know i've been MIA-ing.
been very busy.
and i'm very tired.
school have ok so far.
my classmates are muh better now.
as in all of us are not longer shy to talk in class.
and we are very hyper at times.
alot has happened actually but i can't recall much.
just now i went to apply for photo journalism.
haha.
not sure if i can get in.
so yeah.
was thinking of joining the hip hop dance thingy.
mcm paham.
crazy right.
lol.
whatever.
i need coke right now.
very thirsty.
that's all for now.
:)

2008-04-08T00:41:00.002+08:00

class was ok today.
everybody is starting to interact with each other.
which is good.
i hope we will all be closer.
poly life is so different.
im feeling sleepy right now.
but i don't feel like sleeping.
i suddenly keep thinking about my dad.
i miss him so much.
i hope he is happy in the other world.
tmr school again.
hmm.
its kindda slack you know.
i think first year is very slack.
thats all for today.

2008-04-05T13:18:00.002+08:00

yesterday was the last day of the orientation.
it was fun.
the jam and hop was fun.
hehe.
it was a very long and tiring day.
and my body is still aching from the activites we did yesterday.
monday i am going to officially start school.
blegh.
i cant wait for this thingy.
i dunno what is the name of the event.
something like CCA fair/bazaar.
i was joining two IG.
but im not sure if i can cope.
one of it is for my own benefit.
it will help me academically.
another is my interest.
so i dunno........
hmm.

2008-04-03T00:02:00.002+08:00

hello.
just now was first day orientation.
it was.......................
quite boring.
i dont know anyone there.
my classmates are pretty quiet for now.
i hope things will change within this 16 weeks before we change class for the next semester.
and for a moment just know, i felt like i was in high school.
haha.
wait till monday.
when school reopens.
and it sucks that i have to think of what im gonna wear everyday.
and walk around with my heavy lappy.
i dunno.
im not feeling excited suddenly.
blegh.
i really hope things will get better.

2008-03-31T21:50:00.002+08:00

hey.
i will be away for quite some time.
well, what different does it make anyway?
ive been away for quite some time.
so yeah.
i miss blogging.
i've been busy.
that is why i hardly go online.
so the reason im going to MIA for some time is because i need to settle some stuff.
and also to get back on track.
so yeah.
dont miss me!
:)

2008-03-22T00:38:00.002+08:00

hey it was mom's birthday.
21 March.
went to Eunos to eat.
then walk2.
then go home.
in the train my mum and i listened to the MP3.
then at the same time my bro and i did this word search thingy.
it was fun.
im not in the mood to update actually.
so yeah.

I Love You mum!
Happy Birthday!
:)

2008-03-17T00:21:00.003+08:00

hello!
its been quite sometime since i update.
right right right?
loads of stuff happen.
so anyway yesterday was kak syidah's kenduri.
as in she just move into a new house then some prayers need to be done.
it was cool.
so at the same day it was ayah's(my uncle) birthday.
then also celebrate my mum's birthday.
so we went to buy cake.
it was a surprise thingy.
but my mum's birthday is this Friday.
so celebrate in advance.
but we are still going to go out on her birthday.
:)
i know my mum was touched.
thats good.
i wanna see her happy.

im working tmr.
-_-

oh i wanna meet hajar and the baby so bad!!
i heard the baby is so cute.
so i must see.
since the baby is baby boy, i must make the baby addicted to me.
HAHAHAHA!
mentel sey aku.
ok.
thats all folks!
:)

2008-03-10T00:52:00.004+08:00

im so shag.
slept at 3+ am ytd then woke up at 5 am.
then work till 4pm but had to drag till 5pm.
then had to rush off to tanjong pagar for my class.
regarding my work.
they are sort of changing the system worldwide.
then finish at 11pm.
then head back home.
and here i am.
feeling so tired.and i need a massage badly.
boo-hoo.
im tired but my eyes are not sleepy.
both mum and bro were asleep when i reached home.
haiyo.
kk.
imma try to find something to do that will make my eyes heavy.
bye.

2008-03-06T00:44:00.002+08:00

work was ok today.
time passed by so fast.
:)
and just now the stock came in so like happening like that the backroom.
and today i discovered some strange marks on my body.
two red dots on my leg.
its not even itchy.
strange.

im getting fatter each day.
haha.
tmr will be another long day.
i mean morning.
im working morning shift again.
and tmr from 10-12 have free coffee thingy.
so it will be freaking busy.

you should watch The Leap Years.
sad love story.
quite good.
yeah.
my brain is currently dead right now.
bye!

2008-03-03T15:57:00.003+08:00

i have change my blogskin again! lol.
i think that my blog is kindda boring.
like too plain.
is it too plain?
well, nvm.
just keep it easy.
relax...take it eaaaaaaasy..
thats a song.
so i gtg.
i wanna sleep cause today off day.
so tired.
and i need a massage.

2008-02-29T01:52:00.002+08:00

Can't Let Go

Well you’re the closest thing I have
To bring up in a conversation
About a love that didn’t last
But I could never call you mine
'Cause I could never call myself yours
And if we we're really meant to be
Well then we justify destiny I
t's not that our love died
Just never really bloomed

Well I can’t let go
No, I can’t let go of you
You’re holding me back without even trying to
I can’t let go I can’t move on from the past
Without lifting a finger you’re holding me back

And then we saw our paths diverge
And I guess I felt OK about it
Until you got with another man
And then I couldn’t understand
Why it bothered me so
How we didn’t die we just
Never had a chance to grow

I can’t let go
No, I can’t let go of you
You’re holding me back without even trying to
I can’t let go I can’t move on from the past
Without lifting a finger you’re holding me back

And it might not make much sense
To you or any of my friends
Though somehow still you affect the
Things I do
And you can’t lose what you never had
I don’t understand why I feel sad
Every time I see you out with someone new

I can’t let go
No, I can’t let go
No, I can’t let go of you

I can’t let go
No, I can’t let go of you
You’re holding me back without even trying to
I can’t let go
I can’t move on from the past
Without lifting a finger you’re holding me back

I can’t let go
No, I can’t let go of you
You’re holding me back without even trying to
I can’t let go
I can’t move on from the past

2008-02-28T00:18:00.002+08:00

just finish takling to my mum.
so yeah.
it was cool.

so i was otw to the store meeting just now when suddenly i had a call.
a call from this office number.
the moment my phone rang, i got a feeling that MI call me.
so when i checked my phone, it was this office number.
then skali betul uh MI call.
then i excited already.
so they told me that my application was sucessful.
i was like '' oh shit!''
and i have to report there by 7.45 am tmr morning to meet the VP.
sialah.
like secondary school already sia.
idiot.
and im not going to MI cause i dont want.
im not clever enough for that.
and i know i cant cope.
so yeah i have to wait for 4 march.
if i dont get im gonna kill myself.
haha. kidding.
i hope i will get in to the course i want.

so just now, i had my store meeting.
it was ok.
at Vivo City.
memories kepe tempat tu.
lol.
im happy that for 2 months straight our snapshot is 100%.
HAHAHA!
if next month also above 90% and a yes for suggestive selling, we all get bonus!!!
woo!
gerek kepe.
during my first day at work my manager told me that they have not been getting 100% for snapshot.
they always fail.
so i told myself that i wanna set a target for myself to get 100% snapshot for at least 2 months straight.
so yeah we all did it!
happy sey!!
ok why on earth im talking about my work in my blog.
selenger.
ok i wanna go watch tv now then go tdo.
bsk keje... :(
toodles!

2008-02-22T00:46:00.002+08:00

He drops his suitcase by the door

She knows her daddy won't be back anymore

She drags her feet across the floor

Tryna hold back time to keep him holding on

And she says

Daddy Daddy don't leave

I'll do anything to keep you

Right here with me

Can't you see how much I need you

Daddy Daddy don't leave

Mommy's saying things she don't mean

She don't know what she's talking about

Somebody hear me out

Father listen

Tell him that he's got a home and he don't have to go

Father save him

I would do anything in return

I'll clean my room

Try hard in school

I'll be good

I promise you

Father, Father

I pray to you

Now she hasn't slept in weeks

She don't want to close her eyes cause she's scared that he'll leave

They tried just about everything

It's getting harder now

For him to breathe

And she says

Daddy Daddy don't leave

I'll do anything to keep you

Right here with me

Can't you see how much I need you

Daddy Daddy don't leave

The doctors are saying things they don't mean

They don't know what they talking about

Somebody hear me out

Father listen

Tell him that he's got a home and he don't have to go

Father save him

I would do anything in return

I'll clean my room

Try hard in school

I'll be good

I promise you

Father, Father

I pray to you

Please don't let him go

I'm begging you so

There open his eyes

There ain't no more time

To tell him that I love him more

That many thing in the world

Is Daddy's little girl

Father listen

Tell him that he's got a home and he don't have to go

Father save him

I would do anything in return

I'll clean my room

Try hard in school

I'll be good

I promise you

Father, Father

I pray to you

She was Daddy's Little Girl.

2008-02-20T21:35:00.002+08:00

im so sad.
all my gfs get to go into a school and i dont.
i feel so stupid.
so dumb cause no school wants to take me in.
it feels like as if i've done a very big crime and nobody wants me in their school.
boooo-hoooo-hoooo!
seriously, i dont think i will have a bright future.
maybe this is fate.
im just soooooooooooooooooooooooooo damn sad.
its like my future we are talking about here man!
dammit.

2008-02-20T00:05:00.006+08:00

i was sleeping on the bed.
i heard my phone vibrating.
so i had a call from fifi.
bear in mind it was 6+ in the morning.
''kau dah dapat msg dari MOE??'' said fifi.
''erm..aku tak tau. aku ade msg tapi belum bace.''i said.
then i put her on hold and check my msg.
i sat on the bed immediately with my eyes wide open upon reading the msg.
''hello. aku tak dapat any posting uh.''

cut the story short i went into my room, took out the JAE booklet and look through.
i went to get ready right away to go and appeal.
so i went to TP first.
they said im not eligible cause of my damn maths.
so then i went to RP.
same thing.
i was at the verge of crying but i pull myself together.
i dont blame that this hit happened.
i have no one ad nothing to blame except for myself.

i called MI.
called to comfirm if i was eligible.
cause it wrote there i was eligible.
so they said yes and i have to come down to fill up the form.
so i went down.
done.

''we will let you know the posting latest by tuesday.'' said the women.

i was like tuesday?..........................
thats long.

so all the way i keep thinking.
am i doing the right thing to apply at MI.
cause im not sure if i can cope.
then i was thinking since i have no choice, ite is my last option.
so i went back home.
went online, ask almost everybody.
then i decided to try and apply for ite too.
so i went to the website and they say ''the application is closed''.
WWWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
i just went blank.
so here i am now.
hoping that i can go to MI.
if not......
i shall be a failure in life.
urgh!
im basically dumb.
bye.

2008-02-18T15:17:00.003+08:00

im having a running nose right now.
its damn irritating.
i went back late ytd cause i did closing.
ytd was the most 'suey' day.

the transport was suppose to come at 1.30am.
but my idiotic manager let us out late.
there was only 3 people doing closing.
one had to draw the sign board cause we changed the menu board and things like that.
so my another partner and i had to do closing on our own.
i just hate closing.
so my manager pull the shutter but forget to put the partition thingy.
so have to push the shutter back up bit by bit.
it was already after 1.30am at that time.
then we were washing something.
the pipe cannot be off.
then all of us try to fix the pipe.
after that we close the store.
so my manager and his fiancee/gf ride his motor back home.
so left the three of us.
there was no van no nothing.
we called and get to know that the driver left us cause they waited for more then 15 mints.
it was in the contract that they maximum time they can wait is 15 mints.
they called our manager several time but he didnt answer.
so we sat by the roadside calling our other managers.
our store manager went to transfer 40 bucks to my account.
so went to the nearest POSB to check.
my card bounce back.
tried thrice still the same.
they tried using their card too.
bounce back.
so we just took the cab and went back home.
so at the end of the journey, the fare was 42 bucks.
so we paid by nets but its not approved.
ok i think i shall not go on.
its too long.
it was just a 'suey' day for me.
my manager-on-duty have no sense of responsibility at all.

anyway, i had fun on Valentine's Day.
went to eat with my family.

to whoever it may concern, i had fun even though it was for awhile.
i felt like i was at the top of the world when you were sitting by my side.
i didnt know it was the last but somehow i cherished it.
i just wish that someday you will change your mind.
but i know that your answer will still be a no.
so if this is what you want and that this will make you happy then im fine with it.
as long as you are happy, im happy.

2008-02-11T00:31:00.000+08:00

im very pissed off.
i just updated and the page i updated just when blank and close by itself.

eeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! geram nye aku!!!

2008-02-04T00:48:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i post an entry right?
busy?
kindda.
i went to visit my dad's grave just now.
with mum, brother and my aunty and cousins.
today is his birthday.
4 February.
all i can give him for his birthday is lots of prayers.
so yeah.
im working tmr.
sucks.
i wanna go out and meet up with my gfs and my cousin.
its been a loooong time since i spend time with them.
we will meet up soon aite?
gtg.

2008-01-19T00:17:00.000+08:00

im currently in love with this new song from chris brown.
with you.
sweet giler ok the song.
can someone like put the song in their phone then meet me and bluetooth it to me?
haha.
anyway i had fun at town just now with kak syidah and her frens.
cool.
i miss my dad.
my brother had a dream about him and i dont.
not fair.
hmph.

2008-01-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

i was looking forward to this day.
i dyed my hair black back cause you said my hair was a failure-suck.
i went to get my hair done.
i really cut down on my food cause you said i was fat.
all i ate was a chicken pie everyday at work.
i stayed up till 3 in the morning ytd so that i could sms you to plan for the outing today.
you said i was irritating cause i kept on smsing you.
so i cut down.
you said that you were always the one who had to call to talk otp.
so now i called you instead.
i crack my brains to think on what to wear for this outing cause i wanted to look good for you.
yes, it was my fault cause i was late.
but its not like i was from home and i was late on purpose.
i had religious class and only during the class that i got to know that its a two hour class today.
i couldnt inform you cause it would be rude to use hp infront the teacher(ustazah).
then i quickly get ready after the class.
couldnt you wait for awhile?
i felt so stupid in the train.
everyone was looking.
i was more then willing to change just for you.
i dont know if you can see what im willing to do just to be with you.
yes, its stupid.
yet i don't know why i still do it.
call me whatever.
i dont care.
im stubborn; yes.
and now you are avoiding me.
just like the old times.

Sometimes I wish we could just pretend.
Even if only for one weekend.
So come on tell me is this the end?

2008-01-07T22:19:00.001+08:00

it happened so fast.
i couldnt believe that it has been 8 days since my dad left us.
it feels like as if he is on a long holiday and that he will come back sooner or later.

the night before, we all had dinner together at home.
he was quiet.
he still joke around with us and tease my mum but it feels different.
after that my brother and i went to our parents room.
i squeeze in between my bro and dad.
and i lay beside my dad.
very close.
then i saw him looking at me in a different manner.
somehow i feel loved.
i could feel that my dad wanted to put his arms around me but he just looked at me.
didnt say anything else.
i was so close to him.
when i was a kid, my dad love to play around with me.
we will play wrestling and watch wrestling together.
he loves to tickle me with his beards.
love to poke my stomach.
we were just very close.
if my mum and i were to disagree, i will complain to him.
he tried his best to get whatever i wanted.
even though he will nag, he will still try.
a power of a dad is diffrent from a mum's.

and then the day after.
i was asleep in my room.
he came in.
he said '' lina, bangun na. sapu kan vicks kat dade baba. sakit uh. takleh bernafas.''
without hesitation, i took the vicks on my computer table and when into his room and saw him lying down on the floor trying to catch his breath.
i sat beside him and applied the vicks onto his chest.
just like the first time he came back from the gym.
he had breathing difficulties too.
and then he said '' dah takya sapu lagi. urut je.''
so he sat down and i massage his chest and ask him '' asal tak gi doctor? gi la. jom kite gi skrg. kat sebelah block ade clinic.''
he just kept quiet.
he said some prayers.
i was still massaging.
and then he slowly lean back.
i thought he wanted to lie down on the floor but when i looked at his face, his eyes was looking up.
he was shaking.
like a stroke.
i shouted for my mum, she was in the kitchen preparing lunch for us.
she ran into the room.
she took my dad by the head and put it on her lap.
i called the ambulance.
and then i came back in the room.
my dad couldnt talk.
i was so scared.
i tried to pump hios heart.
i didnt know how to do CPR so i just pump my dad's heart.
5-10 mins later the ambulance came.
they took over.
they tried CPR.
then the shocking thingy i dunno what it is called.
he dad was conscious a lil.
then he close his eyes again.
they brought him to the hospital.
i followed.
my mum went with my aunty.
i was alone in the front seat.
i feel so useless.
all the way till we reached the hospital, they did CPR.
i was crying like hell.
i was praying.
i thought the worst that could happened, he will be wawrded later on.

when we reached the hospital,he was pushed into the emergency room and i had to wait outside.
alone.
everybody was looking.
i didnt care.
shortly after my bro came.
then my mum and my aunty.
we waited.
the nurse came out.
he said ''erm, he was actually announce dead the moment he reached the hospital. but we are still trying. so i will comeback later to inform you about his condition.''
the moment he said dead, i feel like kicking his balls.
my mum was already crying like hell.
we were all so damn worried.
shortly after, he came out again and said '' im sorry. we couldnt save him. even with dose of medicine,he still did not respond. im sorry.''
it was still so clear.
my mum went weak and she sat at the wheelchair.
i was hugging her and crying.
i couldnt believe it.
it felt like as though i was dreaming.
cause this happened alot of time in the drama series and in the movies.
it didnt occur to me that it could actually happened to me.
we waited again to see his body.
then we went to the mortuary.
his body was so cold.
so so cold.
i was looking into his face wishing that he would wake up.
his body was already wrapped.
his body was all yellow, numb and cold.
we got to see him for 2 hours.
when we informed our relatives, nobody could believe it.
my dad was a very strong and healthy man.
he loves to tease other ppl and make jokes.

so we thought the next morning we could bring back the body.
my mum had to went down to the hospital to give statement cause my father's death was sudden and he had no medical history.
one thing happened after another.
they told us that they have to operate my dad.
what is there to operate.
cant they pity the body?
could you imagine the pain that my dad had to go through?
later on, the body was brought back to be wash/bath.
my brother told me that they sew it anyhow and that it was lose.
they actually cut my dad opened.
so when bathing they body, they had to be very gentle.
after that the body was brought to the living room so that it can be wrapped with the white cloth.
after that, my mum, brother and me was called forward to look at my dad for the last time.
i couldnt help it.
im actually traimatised cause i saw everything.
i was the last person he talked to.
my brother hugged me.
we kissed my dad.
the most touching part was when my grandma kissed my dad.
and when the ustat said ''cik, halal kan makan minum dier. susu yang dier minum, halal kan.''
she nodded and she cried
she is suffering from amnesia.
she didnt know who my dad was.
she couldnt remember much.
even though somehow there will definitely be a connection between a mum and her son.
she said that she saw my dad the day before.
she said he came to my aunty house at 3 am in the morning.
but my dad has already passed away the day before.
but the thing that make me 'redha' is that he looked so calm.
for now, there is nothig i can do to repay my dad but just to offer him prayers.
hopefully i will meet him again.

my dad was a very good man.
a filial son.
a good brother.
a good husband.
a responsible dad.

for those who knows my dad, pls forgive him if he have ever hurt your feelings in anyway.
halal kan makan minum, hutang piutang dier.

i will miss you dad.
i will take care of mum.
pls forgive me for all the wrong things that i have done.
halal kan makan minum lina.
i love you dad.
i know i have never told you i love you but i believe that you should know that.
i will pray for you and i will always miss you dad.
we will meet again.

2007-12-24T00:38:00.000+08:00

i hate it every time i feel this way.
it sucks.
but i couldnt help it.
what am i suppose to do?
lie about what i feel inside?
i dont wanna be pessimistic.
but seeing all that, it just makes me feel the way im feeling now.
they have someone to turn to but i dont.
so many things i missed out.
is it because i've been busy?
but thats not a reason. thats an excuse.
like i said i dont wanna be naive and think negatively but everywhere i go it keeps on proving that its actually happening.
what i feel inside is happening and its not my naive feeling.
sometimes when im alone, i sit down and ask myself who really care or cared?
trust me this is not the first time im feeling this way.
i thought it would go away but it keeps coming back.
since i was little.
this feeling keeps on bugging me.
i dont like it.
i hate it.
it just suck.
it really really suck.

pls do me a favor and not comment on this lame and stupid entry.
thank you.

2007-12-22T22:42:00.001+08:00

hello!
i know i've not been updating.
been busy.
anyway right now im at my cousin's place.
we are having a slumber party!
my cousin, Danish is singing beside me right now, singing the song Bila Rindu.
haha.
and zurah is currently trying to play the guitar.
huahua!
i wish i dont have to wake up early tmr.

P.S: YOU ARE AN ASSHOLE. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. DAMN YOU.

2007-12-18T16:52:00.000+08:00

im so blank right now.
i guess that was right.
false hope.
you might be asking why i said hope.
well, you shouldn't have said what you said.
maybe what we had means nothing to you.
whatever.
it doesnt matter anymore.
im still trying to digest whatever shit that has been happening in my life.
thanks for making me realize some things that i did not know.
maybe you didnt even loved me back then.
im not gonna blame you for whatever.
maybe i should blame myself instead.
you are really selfish you know.
you keep on blaming me for everything that happened between us.
have you ever tried asking yourself why it happened?
its not only my fault.
it takes two hands to clap.
if you did not like how i handle things you can at least talk to me about it.
i know you all dont understand wth im saying here.
well i hope HE does.

2007-12-12T23:07:00.000+08:00

hello!
my mum cooked something very nice today!
nasi bryani. (however u spell it)
delicious!

so, i went out ytd with my gfs to celebrate idaa's birthday!
so all of us were suppose to meet at 11 am.
inah and i reached there at around 11.15 am and one of them had reached.
then we sat down and chitty chatty till the rest arrived.
we proceeded to town.
took a bus from there to Botanical Garden.
we took some pictures outside the Botanical Garden for awhile.
then we walked to the Swan Lake and found a pondok and we settled down.
as soon as we settle down, we eat, chat and camwhore.
haha.
after some time, farhan called us and said that they were reaching.
of cause idaa didn't know.
hee.
all of us then squeezed together to hide so that idaa can't see us.
as she was approaching the pondok, we shouted SURPRISE!
she was shocked!
hehe.
she looked happy too!
we then sang birthday song for her, cut the cake, camwhore, ate the cake and the roti prata.
the best part was the ''sabo''.
hee!
its like our tradition to ''sabo'' the birthday girl.
we ''saboed'' nina too.
belated.
went to the nearest toilet to clean ourselves up.
camwhore again.
then we proceeded to town.
ana bought perfume then off she went for work.
feeling hungry all of us went to Far East to have our late lunch.
it was freezing cold in there and we were soooo full after that.
so we walked all the way to Dhoby Ghaut and we lepak there.
we played this game called kuti2.
i know the name is like -_-.
oh well.
then the truth or dare.
it was fun.
hee.
after that we all went home.
hee.
ok so here are some of the pictures.
in random order.

she looks happy right. :)

the birthday girl posing with her birthday cake.

cutting the cake!

sweet right? :)

birthday wish!

lesbian part 1.

lesbian part 2.

america's next top model.

maii makan keropok.

ana tgh bored. haha.

alright ppl! thats all.

('',)

2007-12-01T21:09:00.000+08:00

i dunno what i should do or feel or whatever.
the news shocked me.
then today i found out something again.
i found out that u were in love with another girl.
and it happened last month.
and during this period of time u were asking me to come back to u.
u said u love me and also at the same time u love her.
speechless.

let me see....
first i found out a shameful thing u did which i should not mention here and u dont even look or feel guilty abt it.
u said u feel guilty but u dont show it.
wtf?
that is not called guilty.
i know that we broke up.
i thought u would change, grow and learn from it.
then u said u still love me and u want us to be back together.
i want us to be back together too.
but something is telling me not just yet.
then i found out that u actually have feelings for another girl and vice versa.
u have feelings for her while u were telling me that u were fucking in love with me?
it just dont make sense.
contradicting.
in fact everything u said doesnt make sense.
i think u made me suffer quite enough.
enough is enough.
dont put me through this shit again.
u wanna meet and talk about it?
u had ur chance to do so but in the end i found out and u only admit when i actually interrogate u.
there is nothing to talk about.
period.

2007-11-30T00:57:00.000+08:00

my brother is still as irritating as ever.
everytime after i finish cleaning up the room, he will mess it up.
and i will get the scolding. damn.
he always ask me to do this and that.
bossing me around.
pushing me around.
i will try and get use to it.
whatever.

ive been home alone for the past few days.
and you know what, im the kind of person who cant be left alone cause my imagination tends to get wild.
i will have this flashbacks when i was a lil kid.
i am not close with my parents.
i used to be close with my brother but i guess things have change now.
i just don't feel like i belong here cause i cant talk to them.
its difficult.
i cant explain.
its just difficult.
so i whatever thoughts that i have, i will bottle it up.
i know its not good blablabla.
but what choice do i have?
my friends can't always be there for me 24/7.
they will soon get bored hearing it too.
so i just have to rely on myself.

there is so much i wanna achieve but its just impossible.
i know nothing is impossible and things like that.
buy hey!
think back.
IT IS impossible.
when you start to dream and when your dream starts to be big, snap back to reality.
cause you and i know that its just a dream.
somehow deep inside you wanna try and achieve it.
go ahead.
but if you fail, you must get up and know that in life there is always setbacks.

i think ive been talking too much crap so i think i better get going.

2007-11-26T01:04:00.000+08:00

My Little Soldier

I know it has not been easy for you

You are growing up and you barely even know me

I’m still tryna get closer to you every minute that I can

This might all happened too fast and I know deep inside you’re tryna understand

I know I’m not the World Greatest Dad

But I hope that you will give me the chance to prove that I can be that

Or even one day you will be proud of me

I wish that I can change our destiny

And hopefully our life can be better

Chorus

Everything’s gonna be over before you know it

Just close your eyes and go to sleep

Don’t you worry about a thing

I’ll be right here beside you, watching you sleep

You will always be my lil soldier

The four walls has been my companion for the past few years

Grandma always told me that things happened for a reason

Now I see what it really means

Yes, you are growing up and pretty mature

But you can’t hide that loneliness in your eyes

I know mama is always gone

But that doesn’t mean she don’t care

I know you hardly have someone to talk to

It doesn’t matter now, daddy’s here

I’m sorry that you had to go through all this

I promise you I will give you the life I never had

Let the past be bygones and seize the future together

Chorus

Everything’s gonna be over before you know it

Just close your eyes and go to sleep

Don’t you worry about a thing

I’ll be right here beside you, watching you sleep

You will always be my lil soldier

Now I promise you that imma try and give you what you need

I will only give you the best of things

I’ll make sure you don’t turn out the way I did

I’ll do anything just to keep that smile on your face

You will always be my lil soldier

2007-11-14T23:28:00.000+08:00

my voice is extra manly today.
i hate my hair.
but i will have to manage it.
haiz.
bad hair day.
prom is coming!
i bet its gonna be disastrous;
for me.
i have always dream about a magical prom you know what i mean?
well, that is all fairy tale.
a fairy tale will always remain a fairy tale.
it can never be a reality.
and i don't feel like going to prom.

2007-11-06T23:51:00.000+08:00

hello there!!!
finally its OVERRRRRRRR!!!!!!
i can sleep all i want.
i can slack like a pig.
wait, do pigs slack?
haha.
crap.
ok i cant wait for tmr!!
haha.
im too lazy to iron my clothes.
yeah man.. im lazy.
there is so many things i wanna talk about but my mind is blank right now.
my mind always go blegh...
i seriously dont know what on earth im talking about.
anyway, i've watch the movie 'Music and Lyrics'.
its cool its cool.
sweet. touching. touchy. lots of kisses.
haha.
ok.
nothing else to say now.
just wanna let all of u know that im damn happy that O levels are OVER!

anyway, what happened yesterday just lit up my day.
even though it was short and simple, it still meant alot to me.
the thought of you letting me know, just make me go....................... :)
i was over the moon you know.
i thought you wouldnt let me know.
but i couldnt stop smiling after i received it.
thanks.
and congrats!
to both you and your sister. :)

I'm Done Here.

2007-10-26T21:50:00.000+08:00

im gonna do a short entry cause i miss blogging.
O levels is here.
in 2 weeks, everything will end and i will be jumping up and down like a monkey!
oh and of coz i get to jalan raye with my frenssss....
and go for job hunting..
and then be freaking excited for prom..
and whatever that's in store for me.

i just have this feeling that i can't make it for O levels.
damn.

I'm Done Here.

2007-10-12T13:01:00.000+08:00

i wanna update!!!

but later.

i wanna take a nap first.

just came back from school.

yessssssssss aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

tmr is HARI RAYA!!!!

and i graduated yesterday!!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

2007-10-09T00:12:00.000+08:00

hello!
i just feel like blogging today.
i feel like listing down what i wanna do after i finish my O levels..

i wanna sleep like a pig.
i wanna go job hunting.
i wanna read storybooks.
i wanna read all my diaries.
i wanna read 'The Box'.
i wanna have slumber parties.
i wanna have a movie marathon.
i wanna hangout with my friends always.
i wanna go shopping.
i wanna buy dress for prom night.
i wanna go to the class and family chalet.
i wanna enjoy my freaking life.

I'm Done Here.

2007-10-05T23:56:00.000+08:00

hello hello!
hows everybody??
did you all miss me?
miss me righttt????
i know......
lol.
crap sia.

ok, O LEVELS IS REALLY AROUND THE CORNER!!!!
MY BIGGEST FEAR IS MY MATHS OK????
stress.
aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
also i cant really celebrate raye...
i feel like crying u know????????
haiz.
and we have to school on the eve of hari raya.
how pathetic is that?
i just really hope that this is all worth it.
and i am graduating next weeeeeeeekkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wee-hoo!
but still, i have to go to school.
never mind.
i know its for my own good.
i just cannot wait for all this to be over.
ok.
i have nothing else to say.

I'm Done Here.

2007-10-01T00:44:00.000+08:00

maii smelling her armpit. haha.nina, posing. america's next top model (not!)lol. jk.lighting up the fire crackers!anna, muke mantain ok? hehe.sitting down and playing 007 bang! and chop chilli chop.

maii, after the water bomb.pose pose pose!looks like im the tallest! hahahah!

maii and her bunge api. lol.idah and me!''talk to my hand!'' says lyn. dewi cant wait to break fast. lol.

nina and me. and i hate my hair.maii cutting the cake!'' what the hell?'' says nina.''nak taik hidung aku?'' says maii.
and lastly, maii aka sutun.hope you had fun babe!hehe.P.S: the pictures is not in order. im too lazy to rearrange. hehe.and girls, i think we should do this more often!gerek kan!ok!set!I'm Done Here.

2007-09-28T23:03:00.000+08:00

hello!
so, im gonna do some updating today.
yesterday was my parents 27th wedding anniversary.
i had to lie to my parents saying that im was going meet my friends for awhile when i actually went to meet my brother.
my brother and i went to Harvey Norman to print a photo of my parents.
then we took the cake that i ordered the day before and went home.
so yeah...it was ok.. the cake was nice.
Happy 27th Wedding Anniversary to my Parents!!!

the day before....
met up with all my girlfriends.
celebrate maii's belated birthday.
she didnt want to go at first.
so we tried to persuade her cause everyone was going to be there.
except for inah.
she had to go out with her family.
i will fast forward ok?
we went to break fast at Sakura.
took some pictures and things like that.
after break fast, we proceed to blk 200+ to play with the fire crackers while anna, lyn and dewi went to take the water bomb at dewi's house.
then we went to this court beside dewi's house.
we played some games and maii was so paranoid.
we played 007 bang and chop chilli chop and this game i dont know what it was called.
lol.
fun ok!
maii thought that we were gona give her a birthday bash.
which actually what we planned.
hehe.
it turns out to be a successful birthday bash.
i wish there were more water balloons.
hehe.
after the water bomb, we chill for awhile then went home.
i really had fun.
reunion.

right now, i dont feel so good.
i hate to admit this but i am feeling stress now.
with things happening around me, i dont know how i can cope with it.
its not only about studies.
but everything.
sometimes i wish that my turtle can talk back to me.
but of coz if it really does talk back to me, i will really freak out.
lol.
i wish that i can really go into details but this is like an online diary for me.
i will only go into details in my own personal diary.
but i dont have one right now.
i miss having a diary where i can write down all my thoughts and feelings.
i just cant freaking wait for all this to be over and i can enjoy myself!
this is so depressing.
i have to live with it for a few more weeks!
and i hope that things will be much better for me after my O levels.

im really hurt.
i know that you already apologized.
i accept your apology.
but that doesnt mean that we will get back together.
cause i know that you will never change.
we were together for 2 years 4 months.
it was a long period of time for me.
but, i think that this is just my nature; to forgive but not forget.
the past 17 days wasnt easy for me.
its difficult for me to let you go.
but i have to.
its not like i didnt gave you the time to reflect and think about this.
i did.i gave you several chance.
another chance wont change anything.
you keep on repeating your mistakes.
i know that people make mistakes.
but they normally learn from it.
but you dont.
you may say that you regret it and things like that but i am so sure that you wil do it again.
you take things for granted,very lightly.
everything seems to be like a joke to you.
you keep thinking time and time again that i will keep on giving you chance.
but thats not the whole point.
i dont wanna hurt ppl and i dont wanna get hurt again.
im sorry.
period.

P.S: this has been one long entry. i will upload pictures some other day.

I'm Done Here.

2007-09-18T22:12:00.000+08:00

hello!!!
first of all, i wanna wish my friend SITI MAISARAH a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
hehe.
17 sey.
sweet 17.
just like me.
lol.

my friends and i are very excited cause HARI RAYA is coming.
hehe.
we were so excited that we sang some hari raya song otw back home.
hehe.

then we plan to go to a park to celebrate MAISARAH'S birthday.
we didnt buy any birthday cake as it is the fasting month.
hehe.
sorry eh Maii..
hehe.

now for not so good news.
my prelims suck.
even though i have not gotten all of it back, it still suck.
:'(
well, since its over, i have to concentrate on the upcoming 'O' level.
i really need to study my ass of.
night study will start tmr.
kind of excited.
but come to think about what i am going to eat during the break fast everyday, it sucks.
:(
school food.
i feel like all of us are serving NS or something.
ok crap i know.
i dont think we can go home to break fast with our family.
borinnngggggg!
and my brother is borrowing my watch,
i hope he will really take good care of it.
i really love that watch ok?
im gonna kill him is he spoil it especially if he lose it.

things have not been going my way.
well i guess that's life.
life is never fair.
and i have a question..
do people deserve a second chance?
or perhaps the fourth chance?
to me second chance, yes but fouth chance..? im not so sure...
tell me abt ur opinion.
:)

ok i gtg.
wanna watch tee vee and pack my bag for tmr!
its gonna be a long day.
-_-

I'm Done Here.

2007-09-10T21:10:00.000+08:00

hello.
im suppose to be studying now.
but im very sleepy.
and i've been having sleepless night.
i dont know...
its like when u wake it feels that you have just slept for 5 mints.
aargh.
i better go study now.
prelims.
i miss boyfriend!
:)

I'm Done Here.

2007-09-07T23:03:00.000+08:00

hello there!
i cant wait for monday morning!
hehehehehehehehehe!
and i also cant wait for tmr!!
going out with bf!
at last im going out with bf.
and also at last i am going out window shopping this holiday.
hehehehehehehehehe!
ok this is so boring.

I'm Done Here.

2007-09-04T13:00:00.000+08:00

right now, mum is blow-drying her hair.
i think she is getting ready to go to work.
and then i will be home alone.
bored man.

you know, there are somethings you do, that people dont appreciate it.
and the feeling of not being appreciated just suck.
sometimes i asked myself, ''why are you doing this when people dont appreciate and dont know what is your real intention of doing what you did?''
maybe we should not even try to clear out our name because you know at the end of the day you will not gain anything good but instead gain something bad in return.
so from now on, i will stop trying.
too many heartache.
one after another.

what i am about to say goes to all the girls that read this.
im sure that all girls have gfs right?
and when we were younger, we use to promise each other that we will stay together no matter what.
no fighting about guys.
no keeping things to yourself.
no secrets between us.
no leaving each other out for bfs or any guy.
and if the two of you were to fall for the same guy, one will have to give in or both wont get him.
and it must not only be that one person who keeps on giving in.
we used to comply to all this.
but from what i see, all of this have change.
people change too fast.
time passes too fast.
everything passes to fast.
and we tend to miss out on the good things in life.
like the fun and the closeness we used to have.
some people just dont appreciate friendship.
they prefer to believe others that they have just known.
and due to human self-fishness, the bond that the two of you girls used to have is slowly drifting apart.
true enough a guy can change a girl's life.
either in a good way or the bad way.
as days pass by, i feel emptier inside.
deprived.
so girls, try to reminisce about the past that you and your gfs used to have ok?
your gfs does not necessary means a friend.
it could be your cousin or even your sister.

I'm Done Here.

2007-08-31T19:55:00.000+08:00

so today is teachers day!
i wanna wish my two form teachers and the subject teachers that is teaching 5N3 a...
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!!

and also to miss tan Li Leng ( but now she is married so i dont know her surname..).who have left the school.
im really grateful to her because without her, i wont get a B4 for my maths last year.
im very very super duper weak in my maths ok..
and she is very patient when she teached me cause she knows im very slow.
and just now my class wanted to call her and wish her but she did not answer the phone.
so instead we all sms.
not only she was my maths teacher but she was also my form teacher last year.
thanks for guiding us throughout our N levels.
but now we are going through another tough journey which is the O levels.

so this school holidays, i have to scome back for extra classes.
i really have to make full use of this time to revise.
for the next two months plus..
must endure.
i am going to do what one of my form teacher said.
' ignore all unimportant things. and just ignore ppl that dont understand your situation now.'
that is really true.
you wont lose anything if u ignore this.
im fact i feel that you can spend time to study rather then ponder on all this gundu things/feelings.
out of the seven days of holidays,i want to go out for two days can?
one day with friends and another with bf.
long time never go out with bf.
and i want to watch DVDs tmr.
anybody want movie marathon please call me. hee.

so just now, was teachers day performance.
im happy with my class performance.
and also all other performances was SUPERB!

it is just so hard to get the class together and practise.
some dont even attend a single practise.
ok maybe not some but this one guy.
haiya.
i dont know what friendship means to you man.
urgh.
angry you know.

then after the concert, 5N3 went back to class.
we got the cake ready and waited for mdm suriyanti and mr charles lim.
and mr charles lim cried.
so sweet.
and we hope that the two of them like the performance.
even though the performance was for awhile, it was a very smooth one. hee. :D
before the teachers blew the candle, they both made a wish.(which is so predictable what they were wishing for.hehe.)

so thats all i want to update for the moment because i have to get ready for my religious class later.
see you all online!

oh ya! there are some pictures that i would like to upload.

but im just plain lazy.

hee.

P.S: sorry for any typo errors.

I'm Done Here.

2007-08-26T16:37:00.000+08:00

guess what?
i woke up at 3+ today.
hehe.
cant help it.
too tired.

im sorry that i am feeling this way.
its not like i didnt try.
i did.
i tried and tried.
but i just cant.

when there is love, there is hatred.
when there is hatred, there is love.

I'm Done Here.

2007-08-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

you know what i feel like doing?
i feel like uploading random pictures.
so here we go!

you might be thinking who is this man.this man is my physics teacher!i think that he is the most fun teacher ever.he don't mind us making fun of him.in fact he will joke with us back.you know what i mean?i will surely miss him even though he may be very irritating.hee.

this is a birthday card made by my brother for me on my 17th birthday.hehe.nice right?i wonder how life would be in 1-3 months from now... went to meet my gfs after school today.we went to BK to study.hehe.after that, went to buy burgers and ice creams.and there was a lot of farting.lol.it was fun!should do this more often.hehe. and as you can see this is a cute little duck.i think Firman wanted to give this to his gf but i took the picture of it first.hee.cute right.like me.HEEEEE! and lastly, i want to eat this waffle again.without whipped cream.i dont like whipped cream. and 'O' level oral totally suck. I'm Done Here.

2007-08-21T20:54:00.000+08:00

ok! i have sometime to update my blog.
anyway i really had fun at Sheila's birthday party!
im so sorry that i reached there late.
the bus journey was so long.
i took the us at around 7+ pm and i reach there at 9+?
haiya.
hope you like the birthday present!
must wear ok!

i was not feeling well today.
and my eyes was damn droopy.
so i couldnt take it, i went home and rest.
im sure my teacher will lecture tmr.
urgh.
things arent going so well.
and to who ever said something nasty about me to this someone,
im ok with it.
i cant stop people from talking.
it will never stop.
and if you think i am playing games, fine.
its not what you think it is.
one day you will realise and see the truth.
im just so tired of trying to clear things out when all you want is to leave this matter hanging.
up to you.

everyone have problems.
but we must deal with it.
not run away from it.

Goodbye.

2007-08-18T22:33:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i update.
as usual busy with O levels bla bla bla..
70+ more days people!
and im free like a bird!
then i can sing the song 'I'm Like a Bird'' from nelly furtado..
ok..crap..i know..
im so bored at home..
went to school in the morning to practice oral and it suck.
i mean i totally suck at oral.
and my oral is this friday.
hehe.
i miss hanging out with anna.
dah one week ke two weeks you know ever meet her..

ok so after oral i went to meet my classmates at Northpoint and went to KFC to eat.
then head to dome and very few turn up for the practice.
urgh!
then went home and slept like a pig.
then i called anna and she asked ''kau tak keluar ke? nyari kan saturday.''
then i was like 'yah man saturday and im at home'.
lol.
maybe next weekend then i go out.
but prelims is coming...
so cannot...
and my throat is itching and i've been sneezing.

I'm Done Here.

2007-08-11T21:46:00.000+08:00

here are some pictures of last Friday cooking practical.

2007-08-11T00:19:00.000+08:00

went to meet him.
his hair is growing.
he is going to camp.
he cant wait.
i cant wait.
YEAH!

and i dont like what i saw just now.
im gonna have nighmares abt it.
hopefully not.

I'm Done Here.

2007-08-09T13:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 42ND BIRTHDAY DAY SINGAPORE!!!

hehe. im gonna wear red today! huahua!
im suppose to get ready now but i havent even bath!
hehe.
meeting sheila and az later and also maybe mahes.
but before that i will have to fetch BF from work.
-_-
then we will meet the rest.
im sure today, many people will be wearing red and white!
i think i better go bath now.
once again...

HAPPYBIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

2007-08-03T20:23:00.000+08:00

actually i have loads to talk about.
but suddenly i went blank.
i think that my MT O level results is coming soon.
my English oral is this month.
a few more months till i can burn all the notes and textbooks.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!
cant wait!
and fasting month coming soon!
and HARI RAYA coming soon too!
HAHAHAHAHAHA!

anyway, the maths paper just now suck!
i got myself confuse at the very last minute and that cause me to forget my formula!
urgh!!!!
im sure i will fail again.
some said it was easy.
i think its difficult.
it was a mock exam.
the next exam would be PRELIMS!
then.....JENG JENG JENG!!!
O levels!!!!
i wish time would pass by more slowly.....

anyway!
cant wait for NATIONAL DAY and TEACHER'S DAY!
and it will be a LOOOOONNNGGGG holiday next week!!!!!
i can sleep the whole day!
haha!

ok i want to go and play game ok?
byebye!

I'm Done Here.

2007-07-30T21:07:00.000+08:00

hey!! guess what???
i received a birthday card from my brother!
im very happy ok?
he made that card himself.
but i know that for sure he was not the one who drew and write it.
comfirm he asked his friend to help him.
but still!
im very the happy ok?
i miss him a lot!

To fadhilah:
HAPPY BELATED 17TH BIRTHDAY!!!
sorry tak dpt celebrate together.
:(

2007-07-29T17:11:00.000+08:00

Outta My System

[T-Pain]Oh
[Bow Wow - speaking]
Damn I Just keep thinking about you (oh Baby)
I mean I wanna move on but I can't move on (ohhhh)
It's like you have some kind of hold on me and I don't Know (oh ohh oh ohh)
But Imma go ahead and talk about it
Listen

[Verse 1]
I'm sitting looking out the window like damn
Tryna fix this situation that's at hand
You still running through my mind when
I'm knowing that you shouldn't be,
Me all on yo mind and I'm knowing that it couldn't be
Cause you ain't call and I ain't even appalled
I still got alot of pain I ain't dealt wit it all
I been running round with other chicks,
I'm single and they loving it,
I'm liking it but I just want the one that I was in love with.
That's not the end of it, I'm tryna let you know I can't
Get a grip of it is what I'm tryna let you know.
You got a hold or some kind of control of me
I don't know what it is, but I gotta get you gone from me
I'm working at it and it ain't getting no better just tryna be like,
yeah, forget it, whatever
Instead of staring out this glass looking at this bad weather, damn
I gotta pull myself together
Cause...

[Chorus - T-Pain]
When I'm with somebody, all I think bout is you
When I'm all alone, that's all I wanna do
I miss the smiling faces in my sidekick,
Outta town visits, all the time we spent together makes it hard
to get you outta my system.
You know what you do to me (do to me)
You don't even understand (damn)
You know what you do to me (do to me)
It's so hard to get you outta my system.

[Verse 2]
I'm too attached, my heart won't let me fall back
I got it bad, that's what you can call that (ah)
When I see you in the streets, that's the worse for me
Used to love the little things you did, that's what works for me
It's too major, don't see you on my pager,
Know what you doing, where you at, or can I see you later? (Can I see you later?)
The fellas telling me 'just let her go Bow', believe me,
I'm trying man, I just don't know how
(Just don't know how)
I be in all the top spots, leaving with the hot shots,
knowing they just want me cause
I'm in the top spot
That's not poppin and my brain aint stopping, thinking
Who she with, or where she going, is she club hoppin?
I never had this kind of problem in my life, this is my first time dealing with this kind of fight
It's every night and every flight and every time you in my sight,
Damn this aint even right,
cause...

[Chorus - T-Pain]
When I'm with somebody, all I think bout is you (yeaa)
When I'm all alone, that's all I wanna do (yeaaaa)
I miss the smiling faces in my sidekick,
Outta town visits, all the time we spent together makes it hard
to get you outta my system. (ohhh)
You know what you do to me (do to me)
You don't even understand (damn)
You know what you do to me (do to me)
It's so hard to get you outta my system.

[Hook - Bow Wow]
Is it wrong for me to feel this way, you been running through my mind all day
Can you feel me?
I been tryna get you off my mind, but I cant after all this time
That's what kills me
Is it wrong for me to feel this way, you been running through my mind all day
Can you feel me?
I been tryna get you off my mind, but I cant after all this time
And it kills me

[Chorus - T-Pain]
When I'm with somebody, all I think bout is you
When I'm all alone, that's all I wanna do
I miss the smiling faces in my sidekick,
Outta town visits, all the time we spent together makes it hard
to get you outta my system.
(Hard to get you outtt)
You know what you do to me (do to me)
You don't even understand (damn)
You know what you do to me (do to me)
So hard to get you outta my system

[Bow Wow - speaking]
I remember everything that me and you talked about
Me and you had our whole lives planned out together (oh ohh oh ohh)
And if I could, I would, turn back the hands of time and correct all my mistakes that I ever did
But now I guess I gotta move on, right?
It's still hard and I still love you till this day
Peace.

Only sheila and I know why we put this lyric as our entry.
hehe.
I know,you know,the public don't know.

2007-07-29T00:54:00.000+08:00

H to the E to the L to the L to the O!!!
ok merepek i know...
today was a long day for me.
i woke up at 7am to go to school.
(blegh! school on a saturday!)
then i rushed to meet my mum at yishun interchange.
then took the bus to take the bursary thingy.
my mum and i stayed there for quite some time.
then i rushed to meet anna and raudha at Cineleisure.
by the time i reached there, it was going to be 7pm.
then raudha and i rush to Wheelock to watch Tapestry.
Gerek!
and first time i see shameer aka kambing perform very happily.
lol.
and there was this one part of the song that says...
''but you always know, i'm your bestfriend'' then he turned to us and sing it to us!
sweet right!
ok so tak sia-sia we have been friends for 7 years.
huahua!
then we kept on cheering him by calling him kambing.
lol.

after that we went to Starbucks to get a drink.
and i looooove the one ana recommended me last week and i bought the same today!
Hazelnut Cream Frapp.
sedaaaappp!!!!
then we make our way to youth park!

got this Remix'07 thingy.
best gilerrrr!!!
so many people.
its a hip-hop competition.
and it was damn good!
i wish i can dance like that.
and raudha told me''comfrim kau dance mcm itik sak!!!''
kamade!
we laughed.
then i wanted to see who is this Raihan guy soo much.
so he was there but i didnt get to see him.
huahua!

and the heartmelt part is the part when J.D.I performed!
im not sure what was his name..
he was wearing this brown shirt and he is so cuuutteeee!
when he dance......
....................................
heartmelt........................
huahua!
there was this one part when he dance at the side of the stage that i was at and he looked at me... ( i dont think if he was actually looking at me but he was looking at my direction. haha.so just assume that he was ok. haha.)
haiya! in short he is cute ok?
and heartmelt!
and he looks like someone.
the eyes.

so i wanted to reach home by 10pm but my mum didnt give me a specific time to go home.
they just said ''dont go home late.''
so i thought of moving off from there at 9pm then drag till 10pm then drag till 10+++ close to 11pm.
and i reached home at 11+?
i really had fun today.
and anna, raudha and me were like gossiping non-stop in the train and the time passed by so fast....
we should hang out more often ok?
especially after OOOOOOOSSSSS ok?
hehe.
if i work, you all must fetch me ok?
ok set.
hahahahhaha.
and the song ''walk it out, walk it out is stuck in my head.''
hehe.

I'm Done Here.

2007-07-27T22:01:00.000+08:00

today i woke up late.
when i woke up my eyes was red.
i bump into maii. literally.
a very hard bump.
i was very distracted today.
i ate alot.
i don't know what is happening.
im out of word to say.

to the both of you, im sorry.

I'm Done Here.

2007-07-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

ok so today after school, i went to meet sheila, azari, kidir, mahea, bf and farhan.
they 'sabo' me with flour again. lol.
i was in school uniform mind you.
huahua!
had fun anyway.
after the flour thingy we played ice and water.
funny.
sheila and kidir bought for me 5 pairs of earrings!
as birthday present of course.
hehe.
and all of them is red and white.
the reason why they bought that colour is because i love red.
hee.
also i can match the earrings with my red and white heart shape necklace.
^_^
so i had fun tdy.
and some ppl know its my birthday but nvr wish.
and shameer dont even know its my birthday!
kam-ma-de!
we have been friends for 7 years and yet he dont know.
wth!
after that, sheila, mahes and me went under the block.
they chill and i do my maths hmwk.
also because we keep sheila company while she was waiting fo azari to come back.
then i went home.
hehe.
anyway, thanks for celebrating my birthday ppl!
17.

I'm Done Here.

2007-07-22T19:36:00.000+08:00

ok, so here is nina, ana and maii.this picture is taken before i came.hehe. the flying slipper!!! baywatch... (yeah right! hehe.) my friends lighting up the candle! i know that you cant really see the muffin...but its cute!(made by idah and nina) that's rahman and me!as you can see, im being blind-folded.and im never gonna throw this towel away.hehe.im gonna keep it as a momento.haha. this is the best part!ther part when my friends shouted ''SURPRISE!''ok i know my face sucks, very buruk.i dont care.you know when i was blind-folded and when my bf said ready;i was wishing that i can see my friendsssss facesss.and i really did!so happy! i have no idea what we were doing in this picture.haha.but i know that after this picture was taken, i received alot of hugs and kisses from all of them.and i felt like a supermodel on that day.huahua!
as you can see, my bf's chin looks very long.hehe.ok kidding kidding! inah smashing the muffin on my face! inah jumped on top of us!she is basically crazy on that day.lol. photo time! all my freinds are basically trying to push me down to the ground. and they succeded.kwang3! swiming time!
waiting for the monorail to go back to Vivo City. i did not upload all the pictures because we took plenty of it!around 100+?huahua!there's one part when they 'sabo' inah and me with flour in the toilet!but there is not picture for taht particular moment because the photographer ( Zee) was bathing.and you don't expect him to come in to the girl's toilet right.haha. ok so thats all!i really had a great day!it started npt so good because something happened at home.but then my girlfiends made my day.and i LOVE them alot!!so tomorrow is the actual day!23 July!!im 17 tmr!!sweet 17. I'm Done Here.

2007-07-21T22:23:00.000+08:00

today is the most gerek day in my life!
i am very very very extremely happy!
it was a successful advance birthday surprise!!

here is what happened.
ok first i woke up at 9.10am.
then i get ready for the day.
after that, i went to meet bf which then we head to Sentosa.
so we took the monorail and stopped and the 'Beach Station'.
we walk and walk.
then we reached the Palawan Beach.

so before i walk on the beach;
bf blindfold me with the towel i was putting on my head( it was raining so i cover my head with the towel).
i have to hold on to bf's hand as i really cant see anything as he really cover my eyes.
then we stopped.
.....

he opened the blindfold and.......
''SURPRISE!!!"
i was really shock.
really shock.
speechless.
happy.

once the blindfold was opened, i saw all my friends siting together and shouting ''SURPRISE!!!"
the reason why i was surprised is because my friends told me that they had art and dnt today.
which was believable because they usually have art and dnt on saturdays.
i really did not suspect anything.
and i saw cute little muffins with candles on it.
and they sang a birthday song and i blew the candle.
we the took some pictures.
and inah smashed the muffin on my face!
it was coool....
hehe.
then we changed and we swim.
we played some games.
after that we went to bath.
we rinse ourselves and when sakinah and i was facing the wall, all my freinds came and pour flour on us!
everyone in the toilet was looking at us.
the taste sucks and i cant breathe for a while.
then we cleaned up the place. hehe.
only after that we took the 'real shower'.
huahua!

next, we head back to Vivo City.
sakinah, idaa, nina and zee( the photographer for the day) went home cause they had to attend Madrasah.
ana, ayu, raudha, maii and me went to Banquet to eat.
then we walked around for awhile and went to Esplanade to see the fireworks.
before we went to Esplanade, we went to Starbucks at Raffles City and bought some drinks.
ana recommended me with this drink which is damn nice!
after the fireworks we were all tired and went back home.

i want to say thank you to all of for this pleasant surprise.
idaa: thanks for the birthday card,the cute bracelet and chocolate muffins(sedaap!).
nina: thanks for the muffin with M&Ms(sedaap)!.
maii: thanks for the jokes that never failed to make me laugh. huahua!
ana: thanks for the non-stop smile that made my day
raudha: thanks for the Mee Goreng( i call that mee, mee birthday. hehe, azahari's father taught me that. hehe.)
ayu: thanks for the hugs and kisses!
inah: thanks for smashing the cake on my face. hehe.
lyn: thanks for meeting me today! i missed you alot.
dewi: thanks for the wishes!
zee: thanks for being our photographer for the day. hehe.
boyfriend: thanks for the pleasant surprise that you and my friends had planned for quite a long time.
raini and ariff: thanks for the wishes and sorry i didnt get to meet you guys. :(
sheila: i know you couldnt make but thanks for wanting to come!
kid: thanks for wishing me ''Happy 16th birthday!"haha. kidding!
azahari: well, i know you were working but thanks for having the thought of being there!

and to all of you, thanks for the flour! huahua!
i was really surprised and happy.
i never had this kind of birthday celebration at all!
i mean throughout the five years of friendship.
and also the red box!
thanks for the wishes.
i just realised that i have been using the word thanks and surprise!
haha!
well, thats because i truly feel that way.
hee.
thanks once again.
and sorry if i have any spelling errors.
im too lazy to edit.
i will probably post some pictures some other time.
hehe.

it was DAMN FUN!
greatest birthday ever!!

I'm Done Here.

2007-07-18T15:32:00.000+08:00

as im writting this, my friends are having PE in school.
and here i am stuck at home.
i did not come to school ytd and today.
this is because i have sore eyes.
yesterday i had a shock of my life when i woke up.
my right eye was damn swollen.
i can't even open my eyes.
its as if i had be stung by a bee or someone had punched me in the eye.
so i decided to go to the doctor.
otw there, everyone was looking at me.
and when i came in to the clinic, the so called nurse was like " wah! your eyes terrible man!'
i just smiled and give her my IC.
luckily there were no more patients there.
except for one in the room.
he took so long!

so when it was my turn, the doctor was like, " what happened to your eye?''
i feel like saying '' duh! sore eyes.''
but i didnt, i just said ''sore eyes'' and then i gave him my killer smile.
huahua!
then he asked some questions about my eyes.
blablabla.
and then he said '' you should not study too much. must rest your eyes."
i then gave him a blank look.
in my heart, i was like '' what does sore eyes got to do with studying?''
i can't see the link.

so i thought he wont give me any pills for me to swallow down my small tiny gullet because it is just a sore eye.
then he gave me a small bottle of eye-drop and a packet of pills!
the function of the pill was to decrease the swelling.
so i have to eat 3 pills per day and have to put 2 drops of the so called eye-mo every 4 hour.
and i slept the whole day.
i only woke up to eat.
anyway, i didnt swallow the pill. i crush it and put it on a small spoon with a little water then swallow it.
actually the pill was damn small.
it is small and thin.
still i cant swallow it.
now the swelling is gone.
but not entirely.
both my eyes are red.
i looked like a ghost.
especially when i did not tie my hair and i looked in the mirror.
i have 3 days MC but i will still be going to school tmr.
i cant afford to lose anymore lesson.
so yeah.

I'm Done Here.

2007-07-16T21:04:00.000+08:00

sore eyes.
im having sore eyes.
i got it ard an hour before my O level MT LC?
i was so distracted by it.
and the LC was complex.
urgh!
berfore the LC, everything was in chaos.
the radio and everything.

i really cant take this pain now.
im refering to my sore eyes.
i have to go school tmr.
i have my FNN CWB (O level) execution tmr.
so i cannot make myself absent.
and to add on to the pain, i am having cramps right now.
!!!!!!!!!

I'm Done Here.

2007-07-15T00:11:00.000+08:00

so today i went to watch Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.
it was...........................
ok i guess........
not as good as the previous.
i still think that Goblet of Fire was much better.
and Rupert Grint is hot and cute.
huahua.
and Sirius Black is kind of hot too.
for his age.
but.......
i feel like crying man...
something happen in the movie...
there was this one sad part.
almost cry.
but i didnt.

overall, it was fun.

To BF: thanks for the advance gift. hehe.

I'm Done Here.

2007-07-13T21:53:00.000+08:00

wee-hoo!
the weekend is here!!
at last i get to update.
i've been so busy.
really busy.
i bet everyone taking O level this year is damn busy too.
time passed by so fast.

you know what?
i actually have a lot to update but somehow my mind just went blank.
haiyo.
anyway, i can't wait to go out tmr.
i am going to watch Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.
hehe.
some ppl said its boring.
well, maybe because the director is different?
hmm.
i wonder why is it that it is not the same director who filmed the movie.
still, i want to watch Transformers.
i heard its damn good.
Best Movie of the Year.
so anyway, about the Harry Potter movie, i will let you know about how i think and feel about the movie alright?

i can't wait to meet BF.
i wanna spent time with him as i can't really spend time with him during the weekdays.
he is busy with school and work.
as for me, i am busy with school stuff.
so yeah.
im really looking forward for tmr.

i had fun just now during lunchtime.
my friends and i played 'Pepsi Cola' all they way back to class.
i know its an old game but its damn FUN.
im sure that i will look back at this memory and it will surely make me smile.
seeing their reaction and the way they played the game really made me laughed.

In Life, People Come and Go. But Some Are Meant To Stay.

I'm Done Here.

2007-07-07T19:43:00.000+08:00

so today is Live Earth thingy.

and we were all suppose to be wearing green.

i think i wore green just now because, i had to go to school just now and i just came back.

so my school skirt is kind of green right?

maybe yes, maybe no.

i'm not sure myself.

its been a long time since i have went out.

and i know that i have sacrifice some things for my studies...

but i can't sacrifice this one thing which is....

HARRY POTTER!

I'm gonna watch it next week.

i already bought the tickets!

and it was already half full!

i can't wait!

so next week i want to go out and unwind for a while.

anyway just now, i wanted to photocopy some things then the person told me that 1 piece is 20 cents.

i was like 20 cents?

if print on both sides?

40 cents.

then i remembered that the GST was increased.

maybe the GST was increased because we do not recycle.

and also because we waste papers and electricity.

the weather is so hot this days.

so people do your part and try not too leave the lights on when not in use.

me too must learn how to save electricity.

cheyyyy!

i can't believe i just said that.

I'm going to practice it anyway.

hee.

I'm Done Here.

2007-07-02T14:02:00.000+08:00

heluu heluu!

its been a very very very long time since i updated my blog.

right now, i am so hungry.

i am eating fruit cocktail.

anyway, yesterday i baked cookies!

actually mum didn't let me but then i quietly bake it when she and dad went out.

so yeah, mum was quite angry when she got home.

but when she taste the cookie, she shut up.

LOL.

u should see her reaction.

funny.

ok so last saturday, my school held a funfair.

it was really fun!

even though it was really hot;its still fun.

my class was in charge of 'The Dunking Machine'.

the teachers will be the one who will sit there and the students will throw the ball and hit the spot until the teacher dropped.

and especially when we got to dunk our principal....

soooo FUN!

LOL!

and then my friends all wanted to take the 'Meteorite'.

it was this big machine which it will go round and round and will get steeper and steeper.

i didnt want to take the ride at first because i was scared that i will get dizzy and vomit.

but when my friends decided to go for a second round, i decided to try together with maii because she was also scared at first.

however, nina still didnt want to take because she just drank one whole bottle of Ice Lemon Tea.

so yeah.

inah and firli was laughing when they saw me shouting.

i was scared, so i shout.

it was scary when u reached the top.

i got a little dizzy after that.

so Din helped me buy the candyfloss.

hehe.

i still got around 8 bucks left after the funfair.

overall, i think that the funfair was a success.

oh yah!

the FNN girls need to serve the-guest-of-honour.

the food looked really delicious.

we were all really tired after the funfair.

the Principal said that they will be having the funfair again two years later.

i wish it will happen every year.

so tomorrow will be my Mother Tongue 'O' Level Oral.

im really scared cause all of us only had one practice with our teacher.

i hope i won't stammer when i talk.

ok so thats all folks!

I'm Done Here.

2007-06-25T22:00:00.000+08:00

Ain't It Funnt(remix) -JLO

Ain't it funny
It's been awhile since you came around
Now ya wanna see what's goin' down
Tryin' to tell me why ya want my time
Tryin' to tell me how I'm on your mind
See it never had to be this way
You should of never played the games you played
Now I'm seein' that you're kinda lame

Ain't that funny
Baby that you want me, when you had me
Love is crazy, now I can smile and say
Ain't that funny
Baby that you want me, when you had me
Love is crazy, I'm glad I can smile and say
Ain't that funny

I remember how you walked away
Even when I tried to call your name
See at first I didn't understand
Now you're lookin' like a lonely man
I remember how you did me wrong
And now you're hurtin' cos my love is gone
Everybody gets a chance to burn
You can take it as a chance to learn.

I really wish you wouldn't send me gifts
Tryin' to make me sit and reminise
Tryin' to blind me with your blingin' bling
Thought I told you love don't cost a thing
Hope you realize that now I'm through
And I don't ever wanna hear from you
I had enough of bein' there for you
Now I'm laughin' while you play the fool

Baby, I got my boyfriend
Is that your girlfriend?
Maybe we can be friends...

I know that this is an old song but i kept on hearing this song.

I don't know why though.

Hope you like this song too.

LOL.

I'm Done Here.

2007-06-25T21:42:00.000+08:00

It seemed to be like the perfect thing for you and me
It's so ironic you're what I had pictured you to be
But there are facts in our lives we can never change
Just tell me that you understand and feel the same
This perfect romance that I've created in my mind
I'd live a thousand lives each one with you right by my side
But yet we find ourselves in a less than perfect circumstance
And so it seems like we'll never have the chance

Ain't it funny how some feelings you just can't deny
And you can't move on even though you try
Ain't it strange when you're feeling things you shouldn't feel
I wish this could be real
Ain't it funny how a moment could just change your life
And you don't want to face what's wrong or right
Ain't it strange how fate can play a part
In the story of your heart

Sometimes I think that a true love can never be
I just believe that somehow it wasn't meant to me
Life can be cruel in a way that I can't explain
And I don't think that I could face it all again
I barely know you but somehow I know what you're about
A deeper love I've found in you, and I no longer doubt
You've touched my heart and it altered every plan I've made
And now I feel that I don't have to be afraid

I locked away my heart,but you just set it free
Emotions i felt,held me back from what my life should be
I pushed you far away
And yet you stayed with me
I guess this means
That you and me were meant to be

Ain't It Funny?

2007-06-22T15:37:00.000+08:00

ok! i have decided to update since i have just finish my exams tdy!

so, today i want to take a break from studying.

hehe.

well, i have to go sheila's house tonight.

cause got class.

huahua.

serious ok.

class.

so yeah.

i really have no idea what to write!

...............

hey! my birthday coming soon!

lol.

but az's birthday is like sooner then mine.

mine is 23 days later.

anyway have you guys watch the movie 'the number 23' or something like that?

its a freaky movie.

can't believe i watched it.

if its not for my friends i wont be watching it.

lol.

anyway, do you know that my birthday is on the same day with Daniel Radcliff and the guy from the movie'White Chicks'?

lol.

i know you guys will be like.....''SO?''

ok, i think i better stop blabbering nonsense.

I'm Done Here.

2007-06-16T16:18:00.000+08:00

hello people!

i have decided to change my blog skin.

i don't really like it.

it is like so emo........

blegh.

but i have been wanting to find a blogskin which is black.

so this is the one that i could find.

anyway, i miss bf.

lol.

he is out with his family today.

i was suppose to follow but i have to stay home to clean up the house.

maybe next time ok?

haha.

its been quite a long time since i went out.

so boring....

i want to ask all my GF to go out but they al seems busy.

busy with art and dnt camp.

hmm.

go out soon alright?

and i miss nina!

and the rest of course. :)

i want to call nina but scared.

hehe.

i can't wait for my school's Fiesta.

hehe.

i have not bath yet.

so i think i better bath now.

heeeee!

I'm Done Here.

2007-06-13T00:16:00.000+08:00

i've been so lazy to update my blog.

my house is still under renovation.

pfft.

and i have rearrange some of the things in my room.

my dad painted my room.

i don't really like it.

however i helped him to paint my room.

he didnt really consult me on what colours i want my room to be.

so, i want to decorate my room a little bit.

my room is like very empty.

you know what i mean?

i have physics lesson tomorrow.

after that i will have to buy lunch for my parents.

after that, i will take a nap and then i don't know what i will be doing.

so that is what i am going to do tomorrow.

I'm Done Here.

2007-06-09T22:00:00.000+08:00

hello!

i just wanna wish HAPPY BIRTHDAY to SAKINAHHHH and FAUZEEEE!

HAVE A GREAT ONE!!

I'm Done Here.

2007-06-07T22:56:00.000+08:00

well, well, well...

its been along time since i post a new entry.

i am still at sheila's house.

my house is still under renovation.

i watched Shrek 3 today.

it was funny and there was this man that laughed so loud.

haha.

my bf and i smuggled burger king food into the cinema.

lol.

after the movie,i felt kindda tired.

maybe because of the flu i am having.

so irritating.

i was so sleepy.

and i am still sleepy.

huahua.

i don't know what else to talk about.

so...

I'm Done Here.

2007-06-04T12:39:00.000+08:00

i so need to pee right now but i can't.

wanna know why?

because my house is still under renovation and they switch off the water pipe.

urgh!

i can't bath or whatsoever.

so here i am typing this entry.

i am like so smelly and i need to pee badly.

so, i will be going to sheila's house.

and mum told that i can come back home anytime i want.

lol.

i want to come back when everything is ready.

hehe.

so maybe i will sleep at sheila's house till next week?

i have to sleep at her house because my parents will be sleeping in my room.

and if we share the same room,it will be so.......awkward.

and moreover, i can't watch teevee.

so yeah.

must sleep sheila's house

huahua.

anyway, i had a dream last night.

a dream about my brother.

i miss him alot.

i have forgotten how my life was with him in it.

you know what i mean?

its been years.

its been quite a long time since we last wrote to each other.

it made me feel like i was the only child.

haha.

he told me before that maybe he want to be a housing agent too.

haha.

i can't wait for my friends to meet him.

then you all can see why i say he looks like THE ROCK.

huahua.

ok, you can imagine THE ROCK'S face with mahfuz's(if you know who he is) lips.

haha.

he will come back soon and i hope that everything will be much better.

I'm Done Here.

2007-06-01T21:27:00.000+08:00

hello! right now my room is so cramped. cramped with all the furniture. my house is still under renovation. and there is a possibilities that i have to sleep at my cousin's house till the renovation is done. i don't even have the space to do homework or whatsoever. even right now as i am typing this entry i am very cramped. urgh. so maybe i will go to my cousin's house either on sunday or monday if that is ok with her that is. : )

just now after we finished lesson, the 4E and the 5N students need to assemble in th hall. so there were a few teachers on stage sitting down and we students were suppose to voice out any questions we have. i think that it was a total waste of time. i mean the school asked us to voice out anything. and when we want to tell you something or asked, you went against us anyway. and majority was not answering to the questions asked. so what's the use? wearing a brightly coloured rubberband and watch is like so wrong to you. they are making it a big issue. what does wearing colourful watch and rubberband got to do with our studies? what is the link? when asked you said 'oh there is some other school in the eastside that is much more strister than us'. is that answering the question? and if you ask why i did not came forward and say all this, the answer is simple. they will go against me, twist the question and blablabla. so might as well i don't say it. and i was pretty hurt by what i heard from a friend of mine. she told me that one of the teacher said that Malay students are using subjects such as art/fnn/dnt and mt to pull up their marks. if we are good at that why can't we depend on this subjects? its not like we are not trying to do well in our other subjects. we are but you just can't see it. what do you want us to do? study infront of you 24/7? i just hope that none of the people i know will go in this school. im not gonna say what school that i am currently in. i think because i am not allowed to do so here. so yeah. and to you , you were not the one who make the school what it is now. so don't act like we owe you something. you get what i mean?

I'm Done Here.

2007-05-30T20:26:00.000+08:00

Wait For You - Elliott Yamin
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I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you & I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone
Girl you could have stayed but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
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So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be
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So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
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Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you
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It's been a long time since you called me
How could you forget about me
You got me feeling crazy
How can you walk away
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.
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Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough
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Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do
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I'll Be Waiting.