Can't Let Go

Well you’re the closest thing I have
To bring up in a conversation
About a love that didn’t last
But I could never call you mine
'Cause I could never call myself yours
And if we we're really meant to be
Well then we justify destiny I
t's not that our love died
Just never really bloomed

Well I can’t let go
No, I can’t let go of you
You’re holding me back without even trying to
I can’t let go I can’t move on from the past
Without lifting a finger you’re holding me back

And then we saw our paths diverge
And I guess I felt OK about it
Until you got with another man
And then I couldn’t understand
Why it bothered me so
How we didn’t die we just
Never had a chance to grow

I can’t let go
No, I can’t let go of you
You’re holding me back without even trying to
I can’t let go I can’t move on from the past
Without lifting a finger you’re holding me back

And it might not make much sense
To you or any of my friends
Though somehow still you affect the
Things I do
And you can’t lose what you never had
I don’t understand why I feel sad
Every time I see you out with someone new

I can’t let go
No, I can’t let go
No, I can’t let go of you

I can’t let go
No, I can’t let go of you
You’re holding me back without even trying to
I can’t let go
I can’t move on from the past
Without lifting a finger you’re holding me back

I can’t let go
No, I can’t let go of you
You’re holding me back without even trying to
I can’t let go
I can’t move on from the past


2/29/2008 01:52:00 AM

just finish takling to my mum.
so yeah.
it was cool.

so i was otw to the store meeting just now when suddenly i had a call.
a call from this office number.
the moment my phone rang, i got a feeling that MI call me.
so when i checked my phone, it was this office number.
then skali betul uh MI call.
then i excited already.
so they told me that my application was sucessful.
i was like '' oh shit!''
and i have to report there by 7.45 am tmr morning to meet the VP.
sialah.
like secondary school already sia.
idiot.
and im not going to MI cause i dont want.
im not clever enough for that.
and i know i cant cope.
so yeah i have to wait for 4 march.
if i dont get im gonna kill myself.
haha. kidding.
i hope i will get in to the course i want.

so just now, i had my store meeting.
it was ok.
at Vivo City.
memories kepe tempat tu.
lol.
im happy that for 2 months straight our snapshot is 100%.
HAHAHA!
if next month also above 90% and a yes for suggestive selling, we all get bonus!!!
woo!
gerek kepe.
during my first day at work my manager told me that they have not been getting 100% for snapshot.
they always fail.
so i told myself that i wanna set a target for myself to get 100% snapshot for at least 2 months straight.
so yeah we all did it!
happy sey!!
ok why on earth im talking about my work in my blog.
selenger.
ok i wanna go watch tv now then go tdo.
bsk keje... :(
toodles!


2/28/2008 12:18:00 AM

2/22/2008 12:46:00 AM

im so sad.
all my gfs get to go into a school and i dont.
i feel so stupid.
so dumb cause no school wants to take me in.
it feels like as if i've done a very big crime and nobody wants me in their school.
boooo-hoooo-hoooo!
seriously, i dont think i will have a bright future.
maybe this is fate.
im just soooooooooooooooooooooooooo damn sad.
its like my future we are talking about here man!
dammit.


2/20/2008 09:35:00 PM

i was sleeping on the bed.
i heard my phone vibrating.
so i had a call from fifi.
bear in mind it was 6+ in the morning.
''kau dah dapat msg dari MOE??'' said fifi.
''erm..aku tak tau. aku ade msg tapi belum bace.''i said.
then i put her on hold and check my msg.
i sat on the bed immediately with my eyes wide open upon reading the msg.
''hello. aku tak dapat any posting uh.''

cut the story short i went into my room, took out the JAE booklet and look through.
i went to get ready right away to go and appeal.
so i went to TP first.
they said im not eligible cause of my damn maths.
so then i went to RP.
same thing.
i was at the verge of crying but i pull myself together.
i dont blame that this hit happened.
i have no one ad nothing to blame except for myself.

i called MI.
called to comfirm if i was eligible.
cause it wrote there i was eligible.
so they said yes and i have to come down to fill up the form.
so i went down.
done.

''we will let you know the posting latest by tuesday.'' said the women.

i was like tuesday?..........................
thats long.

so all the way i keep thinking.
am i doing the right thing to apply at MI.
cause im not sure if i can cope.
then i was thinking since i have no choice, ite is my last option.
so i went back home.
went online, ask almost everybody.
then i decided to try and apply for ite too.
so i went to the website and they say ''the application is closed''.
WWWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
i just went blank.
so here i am now.
hoping that i can go to MI.
if not......
i shall be a failure in life.
urgh!
im basically dumb.
bye.

2/20/2008 12:05:00 AM

im having a running nose right now.
its damn irritating.
i went back late ytd cause i did closing.
ytd was the most 'suey' day.

the transport was suppose to come at 1.30am.
but my idiotic manager let us out late.
there was only 3 people doing closing.
one had to draw the sign board cause we changed the menu board and things like that.
so my another partner and i had to do closing on our own.
i just hate closing.
so my manager pull the shutter but forget to put the partition thingy.
so have to push the shutter back up bit by bit.
it was already after 1.30am at that time.
then we were washing something.
the pipe cannot be off.
then all of us try to fix the pipe.
after that we close the store.
so my manager and his fiancee/gf ride his motor back home.
so left the three of us.
there was no van no nothing.
we called and get to know that the driver left us cause they waited for more then 15 mints.
it was in the contract that they maximum time they can wait is 15 mints.
they called our manager several time but he didnt answer.
so we sat by the roadside calling our other managers.
our store manager went to transfer 40 bucks to my account.
so went to the nearest POSB to check.
my card bounce back.
tried thrice still the same.
they tried using their card too.
bounce back.
so we just took the cab and went back home.
so at the end of the journey, the fare was 42 bucks.
so we paid by nets but its not approved.
ok i think i shall not go on.
its too long.
it was just a 'suey' day for me.
my manager-on-duty have no sense of responsibility at all.

anyway, i had fun on Valentine's Day.
went to eat with my family.

to whoever it may concern, i had fun even though it was for awhile.
i felt like i was at the top of the world when you were sitting by my side.
i didnt know it was the last but somehow i cherished it.
i just wish that someday you will change your mind.
but i know that your answer will still be a no.
so if this is what you want and that this will make you happy then im fine with it.
as long as you are happy, im happy.


2/18/2008 03:17:00 PM

im very pissed off.
i just updated and the page i updated just when blank and close by itself.

eeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! geram nye aku!!!


2/11/2008 12:31:00 AM

its been a long time since i post an entry right?
busy?
kindda.
i went to visit my dad's grave just now.
with mum, brother and my aunty and cousins.
today is his birthday.
4 February.
all i can give him for his birthday is lots of prayers.
so yeah.
im working tmr.
sucks.
i wanna go out and meet up with my gfs and my cousin.
its been a loooong time since i spend time with them.
we will meet up soon aite?
gtg.


2/04/2008 12:48:00 AM