hello!
so, im gonna do some updating today.
yesterday was my parents 27th wedding anniversary.
i had to lie to my parents saying that im was going meet my friends for awhile when i actually went to meet my brother.
my brother and i went to Harvey Norman to print a photo of my parents.
then we took the cake that i ordered the day before and went home.
so yeah...it was ok.. the cake was nice.
Happy 27th Wedding Anniversary to my Parents!!!

the day before....
met up with all my girlfriends.
celebrate maii's belated birthday.
she didnt want to go at first.
so we tried to persuade her cause everyone was going to be there.
except for inah.
she had to go out with her family.
i will fast forward ok?
we went to break fast at Sakura.
took some pictures and things like that.
after break fast, we proceed to blk 200+ to play with the fire crackers while anna, lyn and dewi went to take the water bomb at dewi's house.
then we went to this court beside dewi's house.
we played some games and maii was so paranoid.
we played 007 bang and chop chilli chop and this game i dont know what it was called.
lol.
fun ok!
maii thought that we were gona give her a birthday bash.
which actually what we planned.
hehe.
it turns out to be a successful birthday bash.
i wish there were more water balloons.
hehe.
after the water bomb, we chill for awhile then went home.
i really had fun.
reunion.

right now, i dont feel so good.
i hate to admit this but i am feeling stress now.
with things happening around me, i dont know how i can cope with it.
its not only about studies.
but everything.
sometimes i wish that my turtle can talk back to me.
but of coz if it really does talk back to me, i will really freak out.
lol.
i wish that i can really go into details but this is like an online diary for me.
i will only go into details in my own personal diary.
but i dont have one right now.
i miss having a diary where i can write down all my thoughts and feelings.
i just cant freaking wait for all this to be over and i can enjoy myself!
this is so depressing.
i have to live with it for a few more weeks!
and i hope that things will be much better for me after my O levels.

im really hurt.
i know that you already apologized.
i accept your apology.
but that doesnt mean that we will get back together.
cause i know that you will never change.
we were together for 2 years 4 months.
it was a long period of time for me.
but, i think that this is just my nature; to forgive but not forget.
the past 17 days wasnt easy for me.
its difficult for me to let you go.
but i have to.
its not like i didnt gave you the time to reflect and think about this.
i did.i gave you several chance.
another chance wont change anything.
you keep on repeating your mistakes.
i know that people make mistakes.
but they normally learn from it.
but you dont.
you may say that you regret it and things like that but i am so sure that you wil do it again.
you take things for granted,very lightly.
everything seems to be like a joke to you.
you keep thinking time and time again that i will keep on giving you chance.
but thats not the whole point.
i dont wanna hurt ppl and i dont wanna get hurt again.
im sorry.
period.

P.S: this has been one long entry. i will upload pictures some other day.

I'm Done Here.





9/28/2007 11:03:00 PM

hello!!!
first of all, i wanna wish my friend SITI MAISARAH a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
hehe.
17 sey.
sweet 17.
just like me.
lol.

my friends and i are very excited cause HARI RAYA is coming.
hehe.
we were so excited that we sang some hari raya song otw back home.
hehe.

then we plan to go to a park to celebrate MAISARAH'S birthday.
we didnt buy any birthday cake as it is the fasting month.
hehe.
sorry eh Maii..
hehe.

now for not so good news.
my prelims suck.
even though i have not gotten all of it back, it still suck.
:'(
well, since its over, i have to concentrate on the upcoming 'O' level.
i really need to study my ass of.
night study will start tmr.
kind of excited.
but come to think about what i am going to eat during the break fast everyday, it sucks.
:(
school food.
i feel like all of us are serving NS or something.
ok crap i know.
i dont think we can go home to break fast with our family.
borinnngggggg!
and my brother is borrowing my watch,
i hope he will really take good care of it.
i really love that watch ok?
im gonna kill him is he spoil it especially if he lose it.

things have not been going my way.
well i guess that's life.
life is never fair.
and i have a question..
do people deserve a second chance?
or perhaps the fourth chance?
to me second chance, yes but fouth chance..? im not so sure...
tell me abt ur opinion.
:)

ok i gtg.
wanna watch tee vee and pack my bag for tmr!
its gonna be a long day.
-_-

I'm Done Here.





9/18/2007 10:12:00 PM

hello.
im suppose to be studying now.
but im very sleepy.
and i've been having sleepless night.
i dont know...
its like when u wake it feels that you have just slept for 5 mints.
aargh.
i better go study now.
prelims.
i miss boyfriend!
:)

I'm Done Here.


9/10/2007 09:10:00 PM

hello there!
i cant wait for monday morning!
hehehehehehehehehe!
and i also cant wait for tmr!!
going out with bf!
at last im going out with bf.
and also at last i am going out window shopping this holiday.
hehehehehehehehehe!
ok this is so boring.

I'm Done Here.



9/07/2007 11:03:00 PM

right now, mum is blow-drying her hair.
i think she is getting ready to go to work.
and then i will be home alone.
bored man.

you know, there are somethings you do, that people dont appreciate it.
and the feeling of not being appreciated just suck.
sometimes i asked myself, ''why are you doing this when people dont appreciate and dont know what is your real intention of doing what you did?''
maybe we should not even try to clear out our name because you know at the end of the day you will not gain anything good but instead gain something bad in return.
so from now on, i will stop trying.
too many heartache.
one after another.

what i am about to say goes to all the girls that read this.
im sure that all girls have gfs right?
and when we were younger, we use to promise each other that we will stay together no matter what.
no fighting about guys.
no keeping things to yourself.
no secrets between us.
no leaving each other out for bfs or any guy.
and if the two of you were to fall for the same guy, one will have to give in or both wont get him.
and it must not only be that one person who keeps on giving in.
we used to comply to all this.
but from what i see, all of this have change.
people change too fast.
time passes too fast.
everything passes to fast.
and we tend to miss out on the good things in life.
like the fun and the closeness we used to have.
some people just dont appreciate friendship.
they prefer to believe others that they have just known.
and due to human self-fishness, the bond that the two of you girls used to have is slowly drifting apart.
true enough a guy can change a girl's life.
either in a good way or the bad way.
as days pass by, i feel emptier inside.
deprived.
so girls, try to reminisce about the past that you and your gfs used to have ok?
your gfs does not necessary means a friend.
it could be your cousin or even your sister.

I'm Done Here.


9/04/2007 01:00:00 PM