Thursday, November 30, 2006
i am so fucked up with my parents.
first, they always get to see my brother.
and i can only see him when i have holidays.
so,i miss him alot.
sheila wants to see him too.
she have not seen my brother for soo long.
its not days or weeks but YEARS.
so,she wants to see him tmr.
but mom and dad said NO.
i just cant explain how upset i am.
and dad shouted at me.
on the phone that is.
i was crying soo bad.
luckily there was some ppl that console me.
(thanks az,sheila and rahman)
urrgrgrgrgrgrgr!!!
im damn piss!
perangai sak my mom!
second,my mom said she is not going for the family gathering this saturday.
i was like why?
what is her damn problem?
everytime when all my aunty plan to go my grandad's house,i will be freaking excited and my mom will be like.
blugrh.......
i mean.cmmon!
its her own sister!
blood sister.
and last year we made the same gathering at the beach.
east coast.
and this year is no exception.
ever since she have been working in this company as housing agent,
she hardly go out with her family.
like her siblings all.
and me.
when i ask her to go out with me she will say she lazy,headache,tired.
i really feel sad.
what ever it is,
I AM GOING THIS SATURDAY.
i will not let her stop me from going there.
and i am going to overnight there.
dont care if my parents angry or want to chase me out of the house.
i dont care.
lagi bagos tak same rumah ngan drg.
its not like they give me money to buy new clothes.
i use my own hari raya money to buy for myself food,clothes,sandals and even my own boxers.
if i ask them for money to eat,i will get scolding.
i cant even remember when was the last time they bought me new clothes.
and my mum hardly cook.
if she cook one dish,
i will have to eat it for like three days straight.
most of the time,noodles.
INSTANT NOODLES.
if i cook myself,she will nag and nag.
i can only eat nice food when i sleepover at sheila's house.
haiz.
im always home alone.
even my father's step sister was shock when mom told her that.
P.S: to my boyfriend,thanks for being there for me. and thanks for sending me back gome just now with the bicycle cause i was in a hurry.
I LOVE YOU.
I'm Done Here.
11/30/2006 10:07:00 PM
Lina Farhana.