Thursday, November 30, 2006
i am so fucked up with my parents.
first, they always get to see my brother.
and i can only see him when i have holidays.
so,i miss him alot.
sheila wants to see him too.
she have not seen my brother for soo long.
its not days or weeks but YEARS.
so,she wants to see him tmr.
but mom and dad said NO.
i just cant explain how upset i am.
and dad shouted at me.
on the phone that is.
i was crying soo bad.
luckily there was some ppl that console me.
(thanks az,sheila and rahman)
urrgrgrgrgrgrgr!!!
im damn piss!
perangai sak my mom!
second,my mom said she is not going for the family gathering this saturday.
i was like why?
what is her damn problem?
everytime when all my aunty plan to go my grandad's house,i will be freaking excited and my mom will be like.
blugrh.......
i mean.cmmon!
its her own sister!
blood sister.
and last year we made the same gathering at the beach.
east coast.
and this year is no exception.
ever since she have been working in this company as housing agent,
she hardly go out with her family.
like her siblings all.
and me.
when i ask her to go out with me she will say she lazy,headache,tired.
i really feel sad.
what ever it is,
I AM GOING THIS SATURDAY.
i will not let her stop me from going there.
and i am going to overnight there.
dont care if my parents angry or want to chase me out of the house.
i dont care.
lagi bagos tak same rumah ngan drg.
its not like they give me money to buy new clothes.
i use my own hari raya money to buy for myself food,clothes,sandals and even my own boxers.
if i ask them for money to eat,i will get scolding.
i cant even remember when was the last time they bought me new clothes.
and my mum hardly cook.
if she cook one dish,
i will have to eat it for like three days straight.
most of the time,noodles.
INSTANT NOODLES.
if i cook myself,she will nag and nag.
i can only eat nice food when i sleepover at sheila's house.
haiz.
im always home alone.
even my father's step sister was shock when mom told her that.
P.S: to my boyfriend,thanks for being there for me. and thanks for sending me back gome just now with the bicycle cause i was in a hurry.
I LOVE YOU.
I'm Done Here.
11/30/2006 10:07:00 PM
Monday, November 27, 2006
just came back from cuzzie's house.
i help her to shop last minute stuff for her prom tonite.
its fun.
but the sad thing is i dun have prom.
its not fair.
i mean,last year the NA can go but not this year.
urgh!
but never mind.
just hope i can go sec 5 and go for prom.
hehe.
it will be my turn nexy year.
hahahahaha!
had a fight with boyfriend ytd.
im just hurt and sad.
i tink i better not talk about it.
well, a clue.
abt him and this girl.
: (
I'm Done Here.
11/27/2006 06:22:00 PM
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Damn, I really messed up this time
But Imma make it up to you
Listen
Seems just like the other day you were my woman
Shopping malls and holidayscouldn't tell us nothing
Now your gone away and
I'm still trynna deny it
But I'm tired from this pain
and I just can't hide it
Its like oohoohoohoohooh
I just can't get over you
Girl oohoohoohoohooh
Feel like I caught the flu
Girl I'm sick from all these lies and these games
And I'm sick from being the reason we turned out this way
I'm trynna act like I don't wanna be with you
Like I would be okayIf you just walked away
I'm trynna act like I don't wanna see you
Like you were just a face
I'll forget you in a day
I'm trynna act like I can do without feeling on your booty
Find another ghetto cutie
To do me like you do me yeah yeah
But I'm just so addicted to you
Imma try but I cantCuz your all I'm trynna do
See ya here and there with your friends
And I start the frontin
Act like I been doing my thingI don't need your loving
But you see it in my eyes
Girl something just aint right
Since we don't share this bed nomore
I can't sleep at night
Baby I knowGuess I'm changing out the door (Can't play it off like I'm so cool)
Girl you know I'm going straight out my mind
I can't stop thinking bout the things we did and the way we kissed
I know it aint right playin like you aint my time girl
Trynna be a playa got me actin like IIII
I'm Tryna-Omarion
I'm Done Here.
11/21/2006 12:41:00 AM
11/21/2006 12:23:00 AM
Sunday, November 19, 2006
i miss the my class chalet.
even though not many ppl turn up,
it was still fun.
after this,we will not be seeing each other that much anymore.
i feel like crying .
im realli gonna miss all of them.
*sigh*
ok.
so during the first day, we met at yishun bus interchange at 11.30 am.
but some were late so we took the bus at 12pm.
after we reach at the chalet,we were suppose to check in at 2.30pm.
so we wait outside of our chalet.
we played card games and just talk abt stupid stuff and crake some jokes.
then wen it was 2.30pm,
shameer and halif went to take the keys while the girls sit at the chalet and look after the things.
then they came back with a sulky face.
you need to be 18 and above to take they damn key!
then we tried to call our friends that are 18 and above
and at last thanks to mustafa's mum,she came.
they we went to the room.
the chinese guys went to have their lunch.
there was no food and no water for us.
we were starving to death.
then.
we played pillow fight.
it was damn funny and fun.
then me and my girlfriends went along the beach.
we came bck and shower together.
kindda funny.
then we went to have dinner.
then went home n rest n get ready for the next day.
so,the second day.
after we reach the chalet,the guys were still sleeping.
then we wake them up.
hehe.
then we change to our swimming costume.
after that we shower together again..
haha.
all the chinese guy went to eat i guess.
so the malay ppl sat in the living room and take care of the house.
so we switch on the radio, full blast.
we were singing to some of the songs.
then we went cycling.
natasha was rollerblading.
i was behind her.
i was on a bicycle.
we have to go up this slope and she couldnt break on time
and she grab the door and i flung open and her left feet went in to this small drain.
i couldnt stop laughing.
but luckily,she was not injured.
so,we had to book for the barbeque pit,u need to rent and pay deposit.
ard 30 bucks?
all of us was broke n dont have enough money.
my dad just give me like 4 bucks to survive for 3 days.
so i give them my 4 bucks.
then they bought chili sauce n planta.
me n hajar almost got rape by our classmate.
in a joking way of coz.
then we start barbequeing.
i was so famished.
then all of us sat down there.
talk n talk.
eat n eat.
some of our classmate turn up for the barbeque.
i went home with varsaghi,my classmate.
then i woke up at 6 in the morning.
went i reach there,some we still sleeping n exhausted.
then i went to make breakfast for them.
after that, i went to the hospital to visit alwiyah together with fadhilah.
then went for job hunting.
so exhausted and moody when i reached home.
i will update my blog and put some of the pics we took during our chalet tmr.
i really had fun at the chalet.
i will never forget this day.
miss u guys!
I'm Done Here.
11/19/2006 03:47:00 PM
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
my life becoming more and more boring each day.
i am becoming lazier.
i am growing fatter.
i sleep the whole day.
and when im bored at home,i will eat.
i will become obese one day if i dont stop this habit.
i miss my frenz.
all of them.
miss laughing n craking jokes.
and i miss my boyfriend.
even though we meet and stuff,tings aint the same.
we use to have great time together.
now,its normal.
wadever.
im tired tinkin abt it.
i just miss the old us.
and for the second time,
you yelled at me infront of many people.
its embarassing.
it hurts.
i know you have apologised.
but it doesnt change the fact that i was hurt and im still hurt.
I'm Done Here.
11/14/2006 02:11:00 AM
Saturday, November 11, 2006
This is for the ones who believe their lives won't change
Hoping that someday things will mend and be the same
This is for the ones who have lost it all when all that's left to gain
Is a simple reminder that the things that were blind to slip away...
How can I say...
Say I'll be okay...
And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on
Now that the lines been broken
I'm too afraid to just look back
The pages have left an empty space
You were all I had
Why does it have to be this way
These things they'll never change
Still I'm left with knowing, content and happy, this is all I need...
If I Fall-amber pacific
P.S. its for you baby...
11/11/2006 02:07:00 AM
Friday, November 3, 2006
hello sexy ppl..!
just came back.
tired.
hehe.
just now i watch the grudge 2 at Vivo City.
scary!
alot of shocking scenes.
haiz.
then go buy some stuff.
Vivo City is a nice place.
u guys should go check it out.
then go bugis but some stuff there.
when home.haha.
i guess i will be going to school next week.
haiz.
this sux.
i gtg now.
not feeling too well.
I'm Done Here.
11/03/2006 12:08:00 AM
Lina Farhana.